DeathWatch No. 26 – It’s Nothing Personal

This is Issue #26 of DeathWatch, the ongoing serial.

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The sudden shock of cold water was disorienting, frightening. Jet was torn from his bittersweet dreams with a cry, struggling to get to his feet, coughing, but as he came up off his knees, there was a heavy rattle, and he found himself thrown back down. Weak and dizzied, he shook his head, and lifted his hands up to put them to his throat, where something held him in an impossible grip. At his neck was a heavy metal collar, a chain from it connected to a huge plate on the floor, only long enough that he could sit or kneel, but not stand. His wrists were chained, his ankles chained. He was bruised from throat to toes, dirty, his clothes (what was left of them) filthy, his hair matted. He spat water, and rubbed at his eyes, still coughing, looking around in confusion.

In front of him stood his captor, one of them, at least, holding an empty, still-dripping bucket. “Wakey-wakey,” she purred.

“What–what’s going on?” he wondered, but his voice was groggy, broken from a lack of use. He looked around, and saw a half-dozen others who looked as he felt, also chained to the floor, dead or dozing, or in shock, perhaps.

“I’ll make it simple. You’re aboard The Storm’s Pride. We’re at ten thousand feet. You’re in the hold, in irons. Whoever, whatever you were before? All that’s over. I picked you up because no one’s going to be missing you. No one’s going to be looking for you. You got abandoned, and as far as anyone else knows, you ran off to pout,” she explains. “When we land, which will be soon, you’ll be sold to a trader who pays good coin for pretty men from the Allied countries. Behave once you’re there, or you’ll get marked as disobedient. If you get marked, you won’t get paid for. If I don’t get money for you, boy, you’ll end up as a powder monkey, at best, or dead on the block for sport.”

“You’ve kidnapped me and now you’re selling me?” Jet wondered, looking baffled.

“Oh, you’re quick, too. Maybe I’ll tell the trader I want more for you, hmm? Lost a lot of you due to pressure sickness. Should recoup my costs somehow.”

“Why would you do this?” Jet asked, kneeling small, wishing he could shrink back against the wall and hide, like the others.

“Like I said — he pays good coin. A few more runs, and I’m out of this game. It’s nothing personal. You just fit the bill, is all.” The woman shrugged and walked off, with her pail, whistling merrily.

Jet watched her go, silent, gawping. When she left, he blinked more water from his eyes and looked around at the other figures in the dimly lit gloom. None of them would meet his eyes, though he could see now they were conscious. “How long have we been down here?” he wondered aloud of the others, but there was no answer. “A day? A few days? Nearly a week?” Still, they said nothing. He turned his efforts to understanding his imprisonment, and began to explore the chain at his throat, the shackles at his wrist and ankles. His everything felt heavy, trembling, as he slid his fingers over the bristly overgrowth at his jaw, trying to figure out how long he’d been mostly unconscious.

“Two weeks,” one of the men, a Kriegsman, judging from his accent, finally answered. “They drugged, fed, and watered those who lived but were unresponsive. You are the last to wake.”

“How many died?” Jet wondered, squinting to look around the hold.

“We assisted in putting at least four, perhaps five dozen over the rails,” the man answered. “They often lose nearly that many, so I am told, due to the pressure sickness. It is good, because they do not pack enough food for more than a dozen extra. The crew told us of voyages where they had too many, and tossed the living over the rails, the weakest. Once they made them fight, survivors got to stay, but too many good men were wounded.”

“Did any of the crew tell you what we’re sold for?” Jet had trouble saying the words aloud; he was to be bought and handled like a thing. The sheer ridiculousness of the notion left him feeling dizzied.

“Oh yes,” the Kriegsman said, baring white teeth in an angry smile. “For sport. They hunt us. The crew told us we are animals to them. That they consider themselves divine beings, and we are merely beasts.”

Jet felt his gorge rise; he closed his eyes and wrapped his arms around himself. Dread settled in, suffocating and cold, as he rested his back against the wall, trying to take in all that he’d just learned.

“What’s your name, boy?” the Kriegsman asked.

“Jet.”

“Did you have family to be missing you?”

“I do. But they think I’m at the Academy,” he said, opening his eyes and looking down at his hands. He glanced up at the Kriegsman and said, “What’s your name?”

“Eisen,” the man said.

“Do you have family?”

“A daughter. I expect she will end up on the streets,” the man said. “She is too young to be alone.”

“How did they… get you?”

“My daughter’s mother died of the wasting fever. Three months ago. The night I was taken, I put the girl to bed and visited the tavern downstairs, looking for diversion. Found a pretty lady. Not remembering much after this until waking up.”

“Do you know the stories of any of the others?” Jet found himself hoping against hope that somehow one of them were incredibly important, that their abductors had made a grave error and that at any moment, a law enforcement ship from the Allied governments would come and take over the ship. It was a wild fantasy that was only mildly more ludicrous than the reality he was currently facing.

Eisen gestured to the other four men, saying, “Thief. Murderer. Thief. Thief. Apparently when they do not have a full enough hold, they pay off local gaolers and pick up those scheduled for life imprisonment.”

“Do you know when we’re landing?” Jet wondered, feeling his heart in his throat, his whole body trembling. The last thing he remembered with true clarity was the feel of Kieron’s mouth on his. He touched his fingertips to his lips, opening his eyes to look at Eisen. It was just then that the airship touched down at the dock. Everything shuddered, and the metal of the gondola squealed as it slid against the boards and ropes. Jet gasped and curled up tighter, feeling a chill move through him.

“Now, it seems,” Eisen said, sitting up straighter, looking toward the door.

It was thrown open, and the woman came back in with a ring of keys that she rattled, jingling them loudly like a bell. “Wake up, boys! Time to take your first breath of foreign air, huh?” she crowed. She walked amongst the men and began to unlock them. Eisen, she did first. Then Jet. When she’d gotten to the second one Eisen had identified, the man sprang up and put his chain around her throat, and lifted her right off the ground. She thrashed, making strangled noises of distress, her eyes huge.

Both Eisen and Jet moved for her, without pause, one to grab for her and one to grab for the killer. Eisen snapped the man’s neck, laying him rather gently to the floor, while Jet caught the woman, and stood her back up. He released her quickly, and she stood there, looking at them both, startled.

The woman gestured to the door, rubbing her throat. “Get up to the deck. If you think I’d lose my chance at the amount of coin you represent, you’re too stupid to live long in this place.”

Jet and Eisen made their way up the ladder to the deck, where they were assaulted almost immediately by the scent of burning oils and hot metal. The marketplace beyond the docking slips was overflowing with people. The wind brought them a wealth of spices, starpod and cassia, brassica, as well as alliums and then something dark and sweet beneath, of bitter chocolates and figs. They stood there, staring, even as the other three men were led to the gangplank. The woman came up behind them, then, and let them stare for awhile before she tauntingly said, “Welcome to your new home, lads. Welcome to Ilona.”

“It would be beautiful, but for the irons we’re wearing,” Jet said quietly.

“Well you could’ve let ‘im kill me,” she answered, rubbing her throat again. “You might’ve been able to get out. Get away. Lost in the market place. Free.”

Jet could think of nothing to say to that — it was Eisen who replied, “We are not the beasts they believe us to be.” He paused, looking her up and down, and added lowly, “Not all of us, anyway.”

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DeathWatch No. 25 – What You Both Had To Go Through

This is Issue #25 of DeathWatch, the ongoing serial.

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Kieron approached the Captain’s quarters, but did not want to interrupt the conversation going on inside. He could not help but overhear parts of it, and was made half curious, half uncomfortable by the slow, awkward jabs of verbal warring. It sounded as though the Captain was taking nothing seriously, while the Quartermaster was taking everything too seriously.

“–ing everyone call you by your first name, mm?” Kieron could hear something in the Quartermaster’s voice. He wasn’t sure if it was anger or jealousy, but it was certainly pain. He recognized it in the things he’d heard from Jet their last afternoon together. Not for the first time, he wondered where his friend was, and if he was all right.

“Come off it, Nate,” Sha’s voice was easy, soothing, urging but without demand.

“He rattled you.”

“Nah.”

“He did. You’re still trembling.”

“That’s enough.”

“You told the kid your name.”

“Nathan, stop.”

There was silence, for a moment, and Kieron lifted a hand to knock, but stopped with his fist raised as he realized the conversation wasn’t yet done.

“Was he wrong? You find yourself a new cabin boy?”

“Let it go. If I wanted a cabin boy, I’d get one, but I’d make sure you like him, too.”

“And what if I said I didn’t want you to?”

“I’d remind you I’m your Captain, and you’ll be Quartermaster until you fall off this ship but you’ll only be first mate if I want you to be. Furthermore? I can have any cabin boy, any way, any time I damn well please, and if that means I want to climb the new one like a tree while you hang from the rigging and watch, then I will.”

“You can be a real bitch sometimes, Captain.”

“Ohh, talk sweet to me some more, baby, you always know how to make me blush.”

After waiting for quite some time, Kieron was no longer certain there would be a point in which he wasn’t interrupting. Rather than continue to eavesdrop, he knocked on the oaken door to the Captain’s quarters. The voices inside abruptly stopped their low arguing.

The captain called, “Come in,” and so Kieron opened the door. As soon as the Quartermaster saw Kieron in the doorframe, he stood up straighter from where he was, very near to the Captain, and stalked out. He shoved past Kieron, wearing a venemous frown.

Kieron looked back over his shoulder at the Quartermaster’s retreating form, and then turned to look at the Captain, who was busy looking at maps.

“What?” she said dully.

Kieron shut the door, but was silent for awhile, watching her.

The Captain’s back straightened as she stood up and crossed her arms over her chest. “What,” she then snapped, glaring. “If you were going to say nothing, you could’ve done that without interrupting.”

Kieron narrowed his eyes, taking a moment to figure out how to put the words together. Finally, he said, “I don’t care why you shot him. I do want to know if you and I are going to have the same problem. Should I take an emergency chute and a ration pack and try to make it?”

“You’re going to care why I shot him,” the Captain said darkly. “He asked me to. Can you believe that? He asked me to kill him. Begged me. The visions started coming too often. The pain came back. He couldn’t handle it. He begged for it. Told me to make it quick. I didn’t want to. Wasn’t going to. But after the fourth day, while we were up in the air, in the middle of a run, and he was in his quarters, dying every hour, spending his waking moments screaming, vomiting blood, I couldn’t take it. By the time I worked up the nerve, he’d bitten off his tongue and was choking. It was a mercy killing,” she said, looking down at her hands, “but not for him.”

Kieron stood in the doorway, feeling his heart in his throat. “How old was he?” He tried to keep his question steady, his voice free of trembling. “How long had he been having the visions?” He wasn’t sure if he managed it.

“He was twenty-eight,” she said, and her expression was almost sweet, almost happy, in remembrance. “Coming up on ten years ago,” she added. “He’d had ’em as long as I could remember. He said he had ’em as a little boy. Even in his cradle. Maman had said he’d gotten fevers, then they stopped. Then came the fits.” She spoke without looking at Kieron, blinking her dark eyes as she cleared her throat and rearranged her maps, fussing with the compass and making notes.

“I want to ask you every question I can think of,” Kieron said. “I want to know if you knew anyone else like this. I want to know how quickly it went from bad to worse. I want to know if being here will give me longer, or just mask the symptoms. I want to ask y–”

“I didn’t. I don’t,” she interrupted. “I didn’t know there was anyone else like him until I saw you do it,” she said. “It’d been so long I almost wondered if maybe he just… maybe it was just a bad dream, you know? But then. Then you got that look on your face. That thousand-miles-away look. The look where you’re right there with me, but not really. He’d get that look. Hollow eyes. Farther away than daydreaming.” She cleared her throat, shaking her head, and lifted her dark eyes up to him. “I don’t know. I don’t know how long you’ve got, Brody.”

Kieron sighed, leaning in the doorframe. They were silent together for awhile, before he said, “I’m sorry, Sha. About your brother. What you both had to go through.”

“He was the one in pain,” she said, and she turned her eyes back down to the maps.

“And now you are,” Kieron said quietly. She either didn’t hear him, or didn’t want to respond, and so he left her staring at her maps.

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The Only Silver

We press onward
through the night,
hands clasped,
sleepstepping through
nightmare marshes,
leading one another,
blind and deaf
and breathing in the scent
of blood and moonlight,
the only silver
that can touch us
without leaving a scar.

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My Sun

If I am to live in the dark,
far from you, from your touch,
and glimpse you only
in the briefest of moments,
let me at least reflect your beauty,
let me at least shine
the love you let spill down over me.
While you are the sun
let me at least be the moon.
While you are my sun,
let me at least be your moon.

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DeathWatch No. 24 – All The Way Down

This is Issue #24 of DeathWatch, the ongoing serial.

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In the weeks-long voyage it took to approach the warfront, the men and women who’d joined the scout ship crew fell into regular routines. They were rotated through various duties, learning everything from rope-splicing to navigation, from patching tarpaulin so the steering fins and sails worked seamlessly to servicing aether engines. There was an easy equality to the crew; no job was unimportant, though some were far from enjoyable, and some were used as punishment.

The recruits quickly learned how to be fast, and how to be safe — when it was a good idea to run up the rigging to tighten a loose piece of canvas, and when it wasn’t — and if it wasn’t whether one should do it anyway, and wear a harness in case he or she was tossed overboard.

Kieron stayed with the Captain, or the Quartermaster, for the most part, learning the ins and outs of planning, handling a crew, and just what would happen when they managed to get into enemy lands.

They passed through the mountains, and the weather changed for the worse, bringing about a damp chill that caught in the bones of some of the crew. More than a few of the new recruits caught a fever, and though it nearly claimed three lives, the only casualty during that time was an aeronaut who’d been aboard the TS Jacob since the Captain had taken her place. He’d never been an officer, never been given a job more useful than powdermonkey, and he never asked for one. According to the established crew, he had never quite fit, had never wanted to fully submit to the orders of the Captain or the Quartermaster, and when he was caught rifling through the goods of those who were too sick to defend themselves, he was summarily hauled to the rail.

“Listen up!” the Captain cried, standing before the man. He struggled in the arms of his captor, the Quartermaster, looking unafraid, but angry, spiteful. The new recruits came in close, while the others went on with their duties — they knew this talk. “This man was caught in the act, stealing from us. He has eaten with us, slept with us, been trusted to guard us in the night. We’ve given him shelter and food and pay, and in return, he has been a thief.”

“Mercy?” one of the Kriegsmen offered. “Mistakes are made.” A few of the other recruits nodded, men and women who had worked beside the thief, and perhaps even considered him a friend.

“And if I were to tell you this was the third time in as many days he has been taking things that were not his? Things of yours?” the Captain said, looking at those who’d offered mercy. “If I were to tell you I have already given mercy, and my generosity was repaid in this fashion?”

The recruits immediately became angry, shouting for punishment, lashings, half rations, docking pay, a court martial as soon as possible. The Quartermaster called for silence, and they quieted, turning an angry gaze on the crewmember who’d been caught.

The man hawked and spat at the Captain’s feet, saying, “Mercy? You’d have thrown me overboard the first night if it weren’t for that one.” He gestured rudely to Kieron. “He your new cabin boy?”

The intimations in his tone were clear; the Captain raised her brows, and said very clearly, “Careful now. He’s the one that said I ought to spare you. I wouldn’t go assaulting his character. You’re treading where you oughtn’t.”

Kieron stood near, with a leaden feeling in his gut. He wasn’t watching the man at all, but instead, he was watching how the ship sailed through the mountains, drifting through wisps of clouds, the world around him cool, but not cold.

“Oh?” the man snarled. “I was an airman long before you were spreading it to get yourself a Captain’s, and let me tell you something — I ain’t ever tread where I oughtn’t. Just where people din’t want ’cause they keep secrets.”

“I don’t keep secrets from my crew,” the Captain said darkly, white teeth bared, challenging. One hand pulled her tallcoat aside, revealing one of the pistols at her hip.

“Sha–” Kieron began, looking pained.

It was the Quartermaster who heard him say her name; one brow lifted. He looked at the Captain, who was still staring down the man held to the rail.

The thief laughed, and said, “No secrets, eh? So they all know about your brother?”

“Ain’t a damn thing to say about my brother,” the Captain growled.

“I know a few things about him. How he died, for inst–”

The gun was out, and the trigger pulled twice, before anyone noticed. Two redblack holes opened in the thief’s chest. He stared down at them with wide eyes, sagging against the rail, mouth working to speak. The Captain turned to look at Kieron, and her voice was hard as she asked, “Was it two? Or three?”

All eyes were on Kieron. “Three,” he said, still looking out at the mountains.

The Captain nodded, and pulled the trigger a third time. “Toss him for the vultures. Keep his blood off my deck.”

The Quartermaster nodded, and singlehandedly hauled the thief up and over the railing, to let him fall from the heavens. No one, not even Kieron, bothered to watch him go down.

She got up atop one of the barrels and looked around at the recruits, dark eyes angry. “Before any of you start bellyaching about murder, let’s get one thing straight. You’re my crew. You’re my responsibility. You keep this ship running, and I keep you safe. You do what you’re told, and it makes my job easier. You try to hurt one another, steal from one another, or make it so we can’t trust each other? I can’t have that. You’re done. You follow that airman all the way down.”

She looked out, around at all of them, chin lifted. “Now I don’t have any secrets from you. My brother’s dead. He’s the one who had secrets –” Her eyes fell on Kieron, and she kept right on talking, “– and they killed him. He was the finest Captain, finest man I knew. But he’s dead and gone now, and if you want to have a conversation about him, it’ll be short, and pretty one-sided, because the truth is, I had to shoot him, and other than that, I’ve got nothing left to say.” She paused, then, and re-holstered her pistol, sighing. “Now we’ve only got two days until we’re within spitting distance of the Blacklands. This tour is about getting as far in as possible, completing maps, getting intel on where the enemy is located, sending that information back to the generals, and eventually getting the fuck back out, without getting dead. We rely on one another. We have to. It’s the only way to survive. I need to know that you’re all with me, not wasting a single second twittering about the fact that I threw a known criminal overboard without aiming to let him land in the scales of Justice.”

“We’re with you,” Kieron said aloud, immediately. He had turned back toward her, as she spoke, watched her face as she talked of her brother. When given the chance, he wasn’t the only one who spoke, but he was the loudest, and it caused a smirk to twist the Captain’s lips. The crew raised their hands in salute for her — hell, they cheered for her, and they cheered for themselves, a singular crew with singular purpose: Get in. Get out. Survive.

“All right, crew! Let’s keep moving — you’ve all got shit to do,” the boatswain called out, allowing the Captain and the Quartermaster to head back to the stern, toward the Captain’s quarters.

Kieron lingered at the rail, and finally turned toward it, leaning over and turning his face toward the earth, far below.

He closed his eyes as they passed over the shadow of the mountains.

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