All Those Illusions

You believe, you all believe,
that some day,
somehow,
you will get that second chance
when it matters the most.

That the eyes of those you love
will open up one last time,
for one last breath,
that you will step out of the path
of the speeding bullet,
that you will manage to get inside
just before it rains,
that you will only be delayed
for ‘five more minutes’
or that getting a puppy
would not be ‘too much work’,
really.

All these illusions
come crashing to a stop
the moment you realize I’m there,
ready for you.
I’m even a little sorry
if you’re not ready for me.
I don’t really do ‘waiting,’ though,
so take my hand,
step under my cloak.

We have places to go,
and things to do,
and trust me,
you won’t want to be
even a moment late.

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DeathWatch No. 30 – Do It

This is Issue #30 of DeathWatch, the ongoing serial.

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Fear.

Agony.

Kieron came awake with a cry after being stunned from the shock of the fin crushing him to the ship, and immediately regretted the very notion of consciousness. His every breath was fire. The strut pinned him; he could feel it grinding against his body, immovable, unforgiving. It dug in against his side, and he groaned lowly, under his breath. The pain mounted as he struggled in its grip, twisting, attempting to relieve the pressure against his ribs. He was being crushed to death as the strut pressed, attempting to fit to the side of the ship where it belonged.

“What do you mean he’s not back over the rail? The pilot pulled in the fucking fin, Nate! GET HIM UP HERE!”

The compiece crackled to life, startling Kieron, and when he shifted, his 02 Tank that was taking the brunt of the force of the strut popped out of the way. It struck against his right side, the jaws of the mechanism bringing the strut down against him with force enough that his ribs gave with a series of sickening cracks.

Every officer wearing an earpiece heard the keening howl of Kieron’s cry as the fin snapped closed against his body.

“OPEN THE FUCKING FIN! OPEN IT NOW!”

The Captain’s voice was a furious buzz in Kieron’s ear. It hurt, the way it shrilled, but he heard her voice as a promise he was still alive. In pain, but still alive.

The fin slowly pulled away from the hull, and the ship slowly banked left again; Kieron could feel the way the wind changed against his face, sharp and stinging, a thousand thousand tiny ice crystals dusting his exposed skin. It stole his breath and he tried to cough, but the barest movement of his body brought fresh hell to his senses. He sagged against the fin as it pulled away from the hull, clutching it, holding his breath in agony.

Above the rail, as the ship scudded through a fresh bank of clouds, officers stared over the edge, pulling up the rope. It was rough going — Kieron and his gear felt heavy — in the end, they gave the whole thing a fierce pull, and ended up staggering back away from the edge.

The end came up, free and frayed from having been severed by the folding mechanism.

“Brody! BRODY!” The compiece squealed in his ear; Kieron hissed in distress, panting. “M’gonna let go,” he whispered, breathless. “You gotta pull me up.”

Half a dozen voices squalled over the radio at once.

“No — no, NO NO!” the captain screamed. “HANG ON! Brody you can’t let go, your harness line was severed!”

Kieron froze, then, clutching the fin, and the adrenaline dump saved him from some of the pain as his breathing became fast, fogging his O2 mask in sharp pants. If his harness was severed, the only thing holding him to the sky was his grip on the airship itself. Miles below, the world floated on; he looked down through the patches of cloud, recalling the slip where he had plunged from the sky.

“You’re gonna have to climb up; we’re sending down another line!” the Quartermaster shouted.

“Do it,” Kieron murmured. “Do it. Send down another line. I’ll put it through the loops. I can’t hold on. I can’t hold on much longer.”

They scrambled up top, the crew struggling to keep the ship flying straight while he felt his fingers growing numb from the cold. They weighted a line and carefully dropped it near him; he could’ve wept with relief when it swung close. He grabbed at it, and struggled to get it through the harness loops with one hand, cold fingers fumbling.

“Captain!” The navigator’s voice was a tight snarl. “We’re drifting too far to port with that fin open. I gotta shut it! Get him up here!”

“Hold your course, ‘gator,” Sha hissed. “We’re going as fast as we can! We’re not shutting the fin; I don’t want to pin him there again.”

“Tell him to climb! We don’t have time to wait.”

Sha cursed, shaking her head. If it came down to it, she would have to make the choice between crushing Kieron, or risking dashing the entirety of the TS Jacob against the side of the mountains through which they were navigating. She knew which she’d pick, but sometimes she hated the fucking choices. “Brody. Brody! You here that? Get your lazy ass back up here. Put the line around your wrist and climb!”

Kieron nodded to himself, closed his eyes against a wave of dizziness, and pulled the line down, swinging it around his wrist. His lungs burned as he kept his breathing shallow, tears welling in his eyes against the pain of his ribs. “Pull,” he grunted, twisting, pushing off the fin and holding tightly to the rope. He swung, hitting the hull, and sobbed aloud. “Pull!” he cried, struggling to get his feet under him, against the ship, so he could walk against it while they drew him up.

“HEAVE!” the Captain ordered. Several of the crew plus the quartermaster began to pull up the rope while she checked over the edge. “He’s clear of the fin,” she called.

The rigging snapped back into place — the fin swung, and tucked neatly against the side of the hull.

When the ship banked starboard, Kieron slid against the hull, struggling to keep purchase. The crew pulled harder, and drew him up, nearly to the fin. His eyes were wide with shock and fear as he looked up to them, taking careful, trembling steps up the hull.

The Captain watched him, shouting to him and the crew, “HEAVE! PULL! HEAVE! PULL! Brody, give me your hand!” She leaned over, reaching, hand straining, relief flooding her as he took his hand off the line, and slipped it into hers.

Until she saw his face. That face. The look, just like her brother got.

“No–”

Kieron’s fingertips in hers were simply gone, and his grip on the line went slack.

“No, fuck, BRODY!”

His eyes got that far-far-away sheen, rolled back in his head, and at fifteen thousand feet, with two boots on the hull and only one hand tangled in the rope, Kieron Brody slipped.

And fell.

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DeathWatch No. 29 – I’m Alive, Captain

This is Issue #29 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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“Listen up crew–” Sha’s voice was sharp; it cut through the morning’s silver light and caught the attention of everyone on deck. “The drills you’ve practiced for when you need to use your oxygen tanks? Well this isn’t a drill. We’re about to cross the the Ridge of Damnation itself, which means we need altitude, which means we’re going to lose the very air we breathe, all right? Get your tanks, get your masks, get your asses moving. Once we get the ship on course, we get it going as fast as possible, and we hold the course steady until we’re over the ridge, and then we descend until it’s safe. Got it? Good!” The Captain was in a chipper mood — whatever argument she’d been having with the Quartermaster seemed to have eased up over the last week.

Kieron kept mostly to himself, learning from them, doing as they ordered, and staying out of the way — it went a long way toward smoothing things over for him with the Quartermaster, who had spent two or three days glaring at him balefully.

The established crew took on the harder tasks, while the recruits took on others, or shadowed. Tanks and harnesses were deployed, and warmer gear was brought out. The rigging was tightened, and every bit of the massive envelope holding them fully aloft was inspected. Fins and wings were carefully checked, flaps and gears oiled and flexed. Staying out of the way of the Captain occasionally meant getting his hands dirty, and because Kieron knew the theoretical ins and outs of the ships his father designed, he often found himself in precarious positions, rearranging something that needed to be fiddled with. The technics loved and hated him for it; he was a daily source of inspiration and confounding curiosity.

Once everything had been readied, and everyone had their oxygen tanks doublechecked, technics gave the signal to the Captain that the ship was ready to go half-again as high into the heavens as it had already been. The ascent was dizzying; the ship climbed through the clouds, washing the ropes and canvasses and wood and metal in cool droplets. Kieron stood with the Captain at the helm, while the boatswain shouted orders between draws on his oxygen tank.

They cruised up to fifteen-thousand feet, where a lack of oxygen would claim any one of them in minutes, if they didn’t have their tanks. They floated up into a bank of clouds that obscured much of the mountains, but previous observations and the navigator’s ability to read his instruments would keep them safe, for the short time the clouds were in the way.

The navigator shouted down commands from where he was up in the rigging, just below the main envelope, and all was going well.

Until it wasn’t.

“Captain!” shouted the navigator through his radio. It was hard to keep the sound of panic from his voice.

“‘Gator!” Sha called back, looking up to him.

“We’re pulling to port!” The radio crackled; the navigator sounded frantic.

“No sir, panels indicate even-stevens; did you fail to account for the wind?” she asked, smiling as she shouted back up to him.

It was cold on deck, the wind was blowing; everyone was wearing their O2 masks and tanks, and they were sailing along through the clouds faster than Kieron had ever moved before. He watched the Captain confer with the navigator and began to do his own check, to see if he could figure out what had happened.

“It’s not the wind! Go starboard!”

“The course was laid to take us straight through The Notch!” Sha said. “We’ve done this a hundred times!”

“Not blind, you daft cow! We’re too close to the mountain, going too fucking fast. PULL. STARBOARD!”

Sha rolled her eyes — Navigators were always so damned dramatic — and began to flip switches and twist dials at the helm, reaching to turn the wheel — but she could feel the resistance in the ship. The whole thing gave a great shuddering groan.

“Captain!” Kieron shouted from the port rail.

“Not now, Brody!”

“The upper port fin is binding!”

“No it fucking isn’t!”

“SHA!”

The Captain looked like she might tie Brody to the mast, but instead, she handed the helm off to another able pilot, shouting “Listen to the navigator, no matter what, got it?” She made her way over to the rail, where Kieron was hastily tying on gear to go over the edge.

“Check my harness!” he shouted.

“What the fuck are you doing?”

“I told you, the–

“We have technics for this!”

“They’re busy with the aether engines and the ballonets, keeping them tuned so you can keep your speed up and then come back down as quickly as possible!” Kieron shouted, his mask dangling from its strap. “I know the rigging! Check. My. Harness!”

“Stubborn fucking prig–” She ran her hands over the lines, picked at the buckles, tugged at the straps, and turned the pulleys, then said. “Hurry up and get back over here so I can keel haul you for being an asshole.”

Kieron rolled his eyes at her and pulled on his goggles, then resecured his mask, moving to crawl over the rail, and lower himself down. Carefully, he scaled along the side of the ship as it cut through the sky, making his way to where the fin was attached to the gondola itself. Thick sheets of ice had formed over the gears and bars; cutting through the cloud so high while going so fast had its disadvantages. It couldn’t pull in unless the ice were dislodged.

“Simple enough,” he said to himself, and pulled out a hammer and an awl, and began to chip away at the frozen mechanics. The only trouble was, once he’d gotten a piece free, the pressure that was still on the fin made it begin to pull tighter against the ship — but there was still ice left, and he was still on it. “Cut the hydraulics!” he shouted, as the jerking motion of the fin threw Kieron from where he’d settled himself, and he rolled across the canvas and bars. Before he was thrown off the fin entirely, he splayed out his arms and legs to stop rolling, gritting his teeth as he clutched at the canvas. The awl rolled away from him and then dropped into the nothing, far below. He craned his neck to watch it fall, and then laid his cheek to the canvas, panting.

“Brody?” Sha sounded panicked over the personal radio.

“I’m alive, Captain.”

“Thank fuck. I don’t want to send anyone valuable to get you.”

“Noted.”

“You almost done?”

“Near to.”

“Hurry up. Gator says we’re all gonna die on the rocks if you don’t haul ass in three minutes. Yell for the Quartermaster to pull you up when you’re done.”

“Aye-aye.”

Hauling himself back up to the top of the fin took all his strength; Kieron leaned against the metal struts, panting in his O2 mask. When he’d caught his breath, he rolled over and began to work at the ice again. He was hurrying as fast as he could, considering the way the fins vibrated in the keening wind, but all the same, he could hear the echoes of urgency in the captain’s voice. He was nearly finished, and was in the process of dislodging one last piece of ice wedged in the main hinge when the ship came out of the clouds.

The proximity alarms sounded, and Kieron lifted his head, staring in horror at the mountain. The ship sailed closer and closer, and if they couldn’t pull in the fin and veer hard to starboard, they might tear the fin off, at best, or simply rip open the zeppelin’s main gas envelope, or simply dash the whole thing against the cliffs.

“Brody!” The quartermaster was calling for him. “You done?”

“Yeah!” he shouted, moving to get up, to reach for the side of the ship so he could climb back up. “Don’t use the hydraulics yet, I have to–”

But it was too late. The fin lurched into motion, throwing Kieron against the side of the ship as it folded itself in. He hit his head against the hull, and slumped against the struts, clutching the canvas with panicked hands. He struggled to find a handhold so he could scale the ship and get back over the rail, shouting, “Quartermaster! Wait! You gotta pull me up!”

Panicked, Kieron yanked on the line holding him, calling out. “Pull me up! Nate? NATE!”

The receiver in his helmet squealed and popped, and Kieron’s pleas grew ever more panicked as the fin pulled in. He lost his footing on the folding canvas, and the struts swept toward him with a grinding shriek, crushing him against the ship as it banked starboard.

He thought of Jet, as he always did, when he was afraid, and then the world went dark.

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DeathWatch No. 28 – Say It

This is Issue #28 of DeathWatch, the ongoing serial.

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“Die.”

Still in the fading throes of the taser, Jet could only watch as Eisen lifted his head and brought the knife up to his throat with his left hand, beneath the line of his jaw. He tipped the handle of the blade down and out, so the keen edge dug up and in, and then dragged the handle all the way to the right, without flinching. Eisen opened his own throat, staring up at the Ilonan all the while, dropping the knife only in the end, as he fell forward, hitting the stone floor. His body jerked as his heart beat furiously, and a tide of crimson rushed, spreading to touch the Ilonan’s toes, the pool widening toward Jet.

Jet managed to scream, finally, as the effects of the taser wore off, and he stared in horror at Eisen, as Eisen watched him, the light in his eyes dimming. His lips worked as though he tried to speak, but then he was simply still, his cheek against the stone, his blood hot and spreading quickly. Jet struggled to squirm away from it, panicking, panting, moving to sit up.

The Ilonan turned, then, and kept his eyes on Jet. He didn’t watch the man who had killed himself at his orders, but instead stepped deliberately into the warm puddle, reaching down to drag two fingers through it, and bring them up to trace Jet’s cheek, painting him. “You asked what I am,” the Ilonan whispered.

Jet said nothing, just stared, tears cutting pale tracks against the blood on his cheek.

“I am Immanis Venator,” the Ilonan purred, putting the tips of his fingers against Jet’s lips.

Jet closed his eyes rather than stare into those pale depths, trembling. The Ilonan tongue had enough familiar words matching those Jet had learned in wargames and history, words thought to have been lost to the Before Time. Misery and fear settled further into his heart, and his voice cracked as he spoke, “You’re the h-hunter. The monstrous hunter.”

“Well done,” Immanis whispered. “You will make a fine prize.”

Jet cringed away from the Ilonan, trying to rid himself of the memory of Eisen’s face, his hollow eyes, the rush of blood.

Immanis sighed, looking bored, and waved a hand at Jet and the trader. “Take it to be cleaned up.”

Jet found himself dragged back up to his feet. The trader led him, then, prodding him with the aether taser to keep him moving, and when Jet turned to look back at the fallen Kriegsman, he received nothing but pain for his troubles, and was pushed ahead, further into the palace, further from anything familiar.

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“Go here,” the trader informed him Jet, pushing him into a room, pulling the door shut behind him, and closing it.

The instant the door shut, Jet heard the lock click, and for a moment, he was back in Contemplation, in the small concrete room, alone with the smell of fear — this time, he had the addition of the memory of Eisen’s face. He turned, his heart in his throat, and scrabbled at the door, keening, fingers digging at the wood near the jamb. He banged at the heavy wood with his shackled wrists until they were bruised, until he he was bleeding, until he was dizzied from exhaustion and fear.

He slid down beside the door and wrapped his arms around himself and fell into a restless sleep where he drowned again and again in waves of red, looking up to see Kieron right above him, within arm’s reach, watching him disappear under the surface. He would scream to his friend, but the sound of it was lost in the roar of the waves.

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When Jet next woke, he got to his feet, heart pounding as he put his back to a corner and took in his surroundings. It wasn’t a dungeon at all, but well-lit, well-appointed, with a bed, an armoire, and plenty of other details he’d never noticed in the dark, in his panic. The windows in the room were tall and bright, covered in thin shades — when Jet pulled them open, he was thrilled to see outside, but disappointed when he realized the windows themselves were covered in bars too thin for him to get through. He tried the door that had been locked last night, and it was still locked. There was another door, which was open, but led only to a toileting room. Jet stood there, staring at the porcelain bowl for a long moment, his mind thoroughly attempting to unpack the absurdity of the situation. He ran water from the taps, relieved himself, drank thirstily, and dared to look in the washing room mirror.

His dark eyes were ringed in deep hollows; he looked half-starved, and his skin was scraped and filthy, his hair matted, his jaw covered in an uneven growth of unwanted beard.

There were two wide streaks of dried blood along his left cheek, from his temple, toward his lips, and then two slashes of blood across his mouth: the places where Immanis had touched him, after Eisen’s death.

Eisen.

Jet bowed his head, feeling his eyes burn, his heart ache. He breathed through his nose, slowly, struggling to calm himself, to center himself, when he heard the door to the room being unlocked. He grabbed the nearest thing at hand — a hairbrush — and ran from the bathroom toward the sound, teeth bared, his makeshift weapon raised. As he barreled into the main room, he was about to charge into the figure that had let themselves in when he realized it was but some sort of servant, carrying a tray.

He skidded to a halt, and the woman gave a cry of startlement and threw the tray at him, running for the door, pulling it shut and locking it yet again, leaving Jet alone in his tatters, holding the hairbrush, staring at the remnants of what might’ve been breakfast.

He tried the door, just in case, but found it locked, and instead, set about cleaning up the breakfast, to see if any of it remained edible. It looked remarkably like a breakfast from home, though the bread itself was different, as was the tea. The egg looked like an egg, but had smashed upon the tile, shell and yolk and porcelain cup all mingled.

He washed his hands after picking it all up, and set it near the door, and waited.

And waited.

He got up and paced, sat down again, used the toilet, paced more. The waiting was interminable — he didn’t even know what he was waiting for, anymore. Another tray? The door to open? The Ilonan, Immanis himself, with a knife?

When at last the door was tried again, he stepped back and lifted his hands into view, as if to tell whoever it was that entered that he was no threat.

The same woman who’d come in, as before, entered, holding a tray. She looked ashen, worried, and carried a key on a tassel at her wrist, panting as she looked about the room, her eyes alighting on Jet. Immediately she began speaking in Ilonan, trembling so that the things on the tray rattled.

Jet could smell the egg, the toast and tea. His stomach growled as he put his hands palm up, saying, “Safe — I’m sorry. I’m so terribly sorry. I won’t hurt you.” Saying it aloud made him want to laugh, or vomit, or both. He’d been kidnapped by slave traders and had watched his companion kill himself at the behest of the man who currently owned him. He had been imprisoned, and he was the one making apologizes, promising safety.

The woman immediately looked baffled, staring at Jet. “You speak the Rough Tongue?” she said, blinking her wide eyes.

Jet echoed the look, and said, “If… that’s… what we’re speaking right now? Then… yes?”

“They told me you were a savage. That you didn’t speak at all,” she said, still trembling.

“I’m not a savage.”

“You certainly look a savage.”

“I just don’t speak Ilonan,” he said, exasperated.

“Oh,” the young woman murmured. “Well. I speak your tongue well enough.” She looked him up and down and said, “I’ve… brought you breakfast. I’m to take the old tray, and leave you with this one. Immanis said you were to wash and dress and come to dinner this eve if you were able.”

Jet paused, and then shook his head, certain he must have hit it. “I’m sorry?”

“You’re to come to dinner? Tonight?” the woman tried again, setting the tray down, and picking up the other one.

“Me?”

“You’re the guest of honor, I’m told. It’s why I said I’d bring you your tea. I never get to meet the game,” she explained, going back to the door, letting herself out.

“The game?” Jet said, walking to the door as she moved to pull it shut.

“Game, yes. What is the word,” she said, running through a list, “In Ilona we say venata, ferina, caro— yes. It is Caro.” And with that, she shut the door.

Jet leaned hard against the bed, feeling his knees buckle. Caro, he thought. Caro means meat.

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DeathWatch No. 27 – Don’t Look Back, Boy

This is Issue #27 of DeathWatch, the ongoing serial.

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Chained together, the prisoners shuffled through the market street, coughing at the road dust, stepping carefully over cobbles, hurried along toward the square. The walk wasn’t long, and people mostly stayed out of the way, if only because those guarding them are well-armed. Jet passed by dozens of men and women and children, in military uniforms, in regal dress, in rags. The heat of the place was stifling — it was hard to believe he was in the middle of winter two short weeks ago. When at last they were hauled to the trader’s bloc, the three surviving criminals were separated and sent to the auctioneer’s side, while the trader stood in front of Eisen and Jet, and examined them both bluntly. All the while, Jet listened to the language of Ilona, a strange and rhythmic thing that reminded him of the Academy, of the old languages they studied, the Latinates from the time Before.

“Open mouth,” the trader shouted to Jet, and he felt the man’s ringed fingers poking at his teeth and tongue. It took all of his self control to not bite down against the invasive touch. Even so, he jerked back, but the trader had his chain in his hand, and pulled him forward. “Lift arm. Other arm.” The man nodded, and reached a hand down to pinch Jet’s thigh, to slap his hips, saying, “Good muscle. Strong,” but when he put his hand between Jet’s legs to squeeze, laughing, “Is also strong, eh?” Jet snarled and his right hand curled into a fist. He nearly let it fly when Eisen reached over and stayed him, a warning look flashing in his eyes. The trader stepped back, smirking, and released Jet, turning to the Kriegsman.

He looked over Eisen in turn, checking his teeth, his muscles, and when he thrust his hand into Eisen’s trousers, Eisen locked eyes with him, smirking. The man’s eyebrows shot up and he pulled his hand back out, laughing and clapping him on the back. “Like fucking horse,” he crowed, chuckling, and turned back to the woman who’d brought them, dickering with her in the foreign tongue that Jet thought he might be able to understand — if people would just slow down.

In the end, the trader bought both Jet and Eisen outright, and ordered another assistant to take them away. Jet looked back after the woman, but she and her partner walked away with a fat purse, and never looked back.

“Don’t look back, boy,” Eisen said, as they were led out of the market by a different road. “If you can watch where you’re going, you might live longer.”

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Filthy and hungry, the two men were sent in a caravan of other men and women, oxen and goats, wagons of crates and barrels, slaves and servants and skilled workers, all of them plodding along the road out of the city itself, and further north. The city’s stifling heat stayed with them, and the dust on the road remained, filling Jet’s eyes and hair, covering his skin until he was streaked and ruddy. Eisen tore a strip from his shirt and tied it around his face, over his nose and mouth, and directed Jet to do the same — it provided no small amount of comfort immediately. When the rain came, it damped down the dust, but turned the road into mud. The caravan was stopped for a time when a wheel was broken, and again when one of the horses went lame from the mud and rocks. Jet slipped and fell, himself, and it was Eisen who lifted him up and helped him get his feet again. The young man was struck with a profound sense of gratitude toward the man who had become his compatriot in this awful journey.

The road itself wound into a walled-off palatial compound full of tall buildings of smooth, glimmering stone. Here there were sprawling villas with open centers, fountains and tree-lined avenues. Jet didn’t want to find it beautiful, but all the same, the delicacy and potent strength of the architecture couldn’t be denied.

The trader who had purchased them brought them up a set of grand steps and into an entrance hall that had the Kriegsman looking reluctantly impressed, and Jet looking baffled.

The wealth on display here was mind-boggling. Columns of marble, statues of marble and glass, inlaid with gems, paintings and vases, friezes and busts — the walls were full, and even the room itself was an inundation of artfully landscaped architecture. Hauled by their chains, the men were brought in front of a dais, and made to stand still. Jet shifted his weight from foot to foot and stared down at the floor, awed by the stone inlay, polished to a glassy sheen. The pattern was intricate and flowing, spiraling leaves caught whorling in an frozen wind.

The trader spoken in Ilonan, and when Jet lifted his eyes, he was grabbed by his collar and pulled to the floor roughly. There was nothing to be done for it but let his knees hit; he made a piteous sound and bowed his head, turning to bare his teeth at the trader, who looked smug. He turned to look up, but then he heard the answering voice. If Ilonan had sounded like music before, this voice made it a symphony.

And then it spoke in his own tongue. “I do not believe I have had the pleasure of a Kriegsman before now.”

Jet turned, looking startled to hear the words in his own language; he caught sight of Eisen, who was likewise on his knees, and stared up at the being who stood on the steps of the dais before them.

The creature was copper skinned and radiant, with long, dark hair that spilled over its shoulders, trailing over a well-muscled bare chest and broad back. He wore split skirts, like the men of the sands, a small collection of throwing knives strapped to his hips and forearms, and prominent body decoration elsewhere, glimmering tattoos that whorled over the skin, flowing with line and curve, muscle and sinew. Bare feet with painted nails strode purposefully across the intricate floor, until the Ilonan stood directly before Eisen. He took no notice of Jet for the moment, looking down at Eisen with impossibly pale eyes, staring for long moments, as though reading something in the Kriegsman’s face. He nodded, after a time, and then stepped before Jet.

Jet lifted his eyes, looking up at the Ilonan, still feeling the pain in his knees. When his own dark eyes met the pale ones of the being before him, he shivered, briefly, as though feeling a spider crawl over his skin. He blinked his eyes, giving a shake to rid himself of the feeling, and met the gaze once more, astonished at the terrifying beauty before him.

The Ilonan’s face registered astonishment as a brief flicker of the brow. His eyes narrowed, ever so slightly, and he leaned down just a touch, saying quietly, “What… are you?”

“Sorry?” Jet whispered. “I…”

“What is your name?” he hissed.

“J-Jet?” Jet stammered, feeling his heart hammering. “My name is Jet.”

“Jet,” the Ilonan said softly, tasting the word in his mouth, rolling it against the tip of the tongue. “Black stone,” he whispered, nodding. “You are mine,” he murmured. “Do you understand this?”

Jet felt, all at once, the strangest compulsion to agree. Yes. Yes, I am yours. The words crawled up the back of his tongue, settled, ready to be spoken. But as quickly as it came, it slipped away. No. I don’t belong here. I’m a prisoner here. He swallowed them down and shook his head. “No,” he whispered. “No, I want to go home.” Tears burned his eyes. “Please.”

The Ilonan’s eyes widened; he stood up straighter, and turned to look at Eisen. “You.” It was a command, all its own.

“Yes,” Eisen said, looking pained. “Yes?”

“You are mine, Kriegsman,” he intoned.

“Yes,” Eisen said, closing his eyes, and tears spilled over his cheeks. “Yes.”

Jet stared hard at his friend, at the man who had walked beside him, helped him out of the mud, shared water with him, spoke to him in the dark of the hold as they waited for light. Something had changed, not for the better. “Eisen?” he whispered, his heart thundering.

Eisen kept his eyes on the Ilonan, never turning to look at Jet, though Jet could see his face, and how his eyes had gone dim — hungry and hollow. Far and away.

Jet looked to the Ilonan again, panicked as he demanded, “What did you do? What did you do to him?”

The Ilonan turned back to Jet, and Jet could see the strange fire in the creature’s eyes — something that moved through him, something Jet felt wanted to devour him alive.

Something Jet realized he could avoid, though Eisen could not.

“You,” the Ilonan whispered. A command, but Jet knew in his bones he could disobey.

“No,” Jet said, shaking his head, a flicker of triumph touching his eyes.

It was short lived. Fury, then, washed over the Ilonan’s face, like a sunset against a twilight sky, rippling and ferociously beautiful. He stalked over to Eisen, removing one of the knives at his hip, and handed it to the kneeling man.

Eisen accepted the knife as though it were a precious gift, cradling it carefully in his hands, nodding. “Yes,” he whispered.

“No,” Jet begged, trying to get up. “No,” he said, his eyes darting from Eisen to the Ilonan and back again, his heart thundering, panic racing. “No, no, no–” he begged, rising from his knees. A sudden pressure hit the back of his neck, then, and he felt his muscles hum, and go tense. Agony poured through him, and Jet’s rising scream was cut off as his teeth clacked together, and he fell to the chamber floor, convulsed. He stared at Eisen as he lay on the floor, writhing in pain, his teeth clenched together, watching the Ilonan draw even closer.

The trader stood over him, holding what looked like an electric torch, sneering. “Aether taser is fun, hmm?”

“Kriegsman,” the Ilonan said softly, stepping forward and reaching out a hand to caress the side of his face.

Eisen wept, smiling, looking up at Ilonan as though he were the sun. “Yes,” he breathed, eager.

The Ilonan’s eyes flickered to Jet, as if to be certain he were watching, to be certain the young man knew his own powerlessness, and his expression was a mix of arrogance and pleasure as he whispered one last word:

“Die.”

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