Bought And Paid For

The heady taste of you on my tongue
reminds me of caviar;
I can remember the slicksaltsweet,
and the spread of your thighs,
oiled and offered.
You are a rich love, with expensive tastes —
I didn’t think I could afford you,
but I’ll gladly pay the market price
until you’re off the shelves.

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DeathWatch No. 115 – I Am Reborn

This is Issue #115 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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The stillness in Jet’s chambers made the hairs on the back of Secta’s neck stand up. He shivered as he shut the door behind himself, creeping in silently, tucking the lockpicks away in his servant robes. He picked his way through the room, smelling the stale soot from the brazier, the tang of aetheris and something… something else.

He did not see Jet; the bathroom door was shut, however; he cursed silently — the bathroom was small enough it would be hard to open the door undetected, no matter how perfectly silent he was.

He sighed heavily, and decided it was worth it — the wedding was less than a day away; either Jet would need help getting ready, perhaps if he were leaving, he would take Secta with him. The young man had no idea what else he’d do if he were sent away, at any rate; he didn’t imagine he’d last long at the Palace.

He opened the door, saying, “A thousand pardons, Guardian, but I–” and his voice was lost.

Secta felt his own heart slow, and skip a beat.

Jet lay in the tub, under jewel-red water that spilled in an unending tide over the edge of the copper and into the drains on the tiled floor around it. He was tucked in such a way that he was kept beneath the surface, and the water kept running.

“No,” Secta breathed, running for the tub.

The water was still scalding, steaming. He burned himself but paid no heed, hauling the Guardian’s prone body up. He dragged him up and over the edge and pulled him onto the tiled floor, screaming in his effort, twisting him to the side. He sobbed as he looked at the wounds on the Guardian’s wrists, at the flood of crimson that poured from him. “My Guardian,” he wept. “Why would you do this? Why would y–”

He stared as the wounds seared themselves shut, as the Black Stone of Ilona seemed to burn from the inside out.

The Guardian of Ilona shuddered, and he gasped as his eyes opened, his back arching as he writhed on the tile floor.

Secta pulled back, terrified, but the Guardian reached for him, panting, his eyes wide, his body glistening from the bath, laughter on his lips.

The Guardian sat up, looking joyous.

Secta helped him up, looking baffled and still nearly frightened.

“I am reborn,” Ilona’s Guardian laughed, cupping Secta’s face in his hands as they stood together. “My famulo. My perfect Secta,” he whispered, leaning to kiss the young man’s mouth warmly. “How I owe you so much. Come, help me up. Tell me how many days left until the wedding?”

“Less than one,” Secta breathed, left shocked from the kiss, and the complete horror of the situation. “My Guardian. My master,” he said, his knees buckling as he sagged against Jet, pulling back to stuff his hands against his mouth, to stop himself from crying.

“Shhh, shh, Secta, all is well. You’ve done perfectly. I needed to shed my old self. My old life. My old heart. Immanis needed something of me I did not know how to give, as the old Jet. I have given up that heart, bled it dry. All that is left is the new Jet. Ilona’s Black Stone. Your Guardian,” he said quietly, rubbing Secta’s back, petting his head. “It’s all right. I’m well. You are safe,” he promised.

“My heart could not bear it if you ever were to do that again,” Secta finally managed, trying to control his breathing.

“Your heart shall not have to bear it again,” Jet promised softly.

“I came… I came in to tell you that you would have to ready yourself. Tomorrow begins the festivities, if I tell Immanis you are ready. And you and Lucida will meet when the Luminora is afire, and the two of you will join yourselves as one. There will be entertainers, the streets will be full of performers, all the houses and the public will vie to bring you gifts, Immanis will present you with gifts–”

“…am I to present Immanis with one?” the Guardian wondered, biting his lower lip briefly.

“I’ve found one you can give him,” Secta said, looking proud. “The Eburneis Dea was brought down. You can give him its people. You ordered it found and brought back, if you remember, while our Prince was felled,” Secta said.

“You are magnificent,” Jet whispered, leaning to kiss Secta again, nuzzling his forehead. “You have thought of everything, have you not? You were worried I had actually ended myself, but you had prepared for me to go through with this?”

“I prayed you would wed Lucida. I prayed you would remain here, so I could remain with you,” Secta said, squeezing Jet’s hand.

“…to whom did you pray?” Jet wondered.

“To my Guardian. To you,” Secta said softly.

“It seems we can add ‘answering prayers’ to my list of miraculous feats,” Jet said, embracing Secta once more.

* * *

The wedding itself would be spoken of for eons.

There had never been such excess, such beauty, such radiance and joy. There had never been two more shining examples of Ilonan perfection — the Princess turned all heads, draped in brilliant jewels and the finest of silks, and the Guardian turned them again, enveloped in the blackest of robes, his face painted, his enameled mask gleaming in the lamplights. The streets were lined in lights, in color, in performers and flowers and dancers.

The ceremony itself, full of song and glorious proclamation, was sent out to public commscreens, shortwaved to all ships, and recorded for future posterity. Prints of it would be sold and put up in hundreds and hundreds of thousands of homes throughout the Luminoran lands.

When the new couple sat enthroned outside the palace gates so every Ilonan who wished it could show their devotion, they handed out coins and cakes and tiny tokens of blessing, touching the citizens that came to pay homage, blessing them with their very hands.

The Prince, Gemma, Acer, and Secta were in close attendance, watching with proud eyes.

Secta also waited in the background, having told absolutely no one of how he found Jet the morning before; he handed Jet everything he needed, moments before it was required, and the day went both smoothly and beautifully.

Wedding gifts included horses, guards, servants, perfumes, silks, aetheris, promises of soldiers, airships, war machines, coin, alliances, trade routes, and ran from only barely modest to entirely ridiculously excessive.

House Tenebrae made it known they would ally themselves with House Venator; the Ilonan line would be secure, without a doubt. Acer Plaga was a guest of honor and pledged his life to the service of Ilona. His father, far enough away, did not send word of dissent, which in itself was miraculous.

The Prince himself bestowed upon them four other estates and retinues.

And once Jet and Lucida had accepted all these things, and the celebrations had gone on long into the night, and revelers were unabashedly delighted, drunk on wine, high on aetheris, the Prince proclaimed it the hour for the lucky couple to finally adjourn. “Your melluna, my brother, my sister, my most precious family. You will be locked away in your own wing to enjoy only one another’s company,” he told them kissing them both upon each cheek.

“One final gift,” Jet said, looking to Immanis.

“I have given you all I can,” Immanis laughed. “Now that you have my sister, what will you ask of me?”

“Not for him,” Lucida laughed. “For you, Immanis.” Her bright eyes were delighted; Jet had allowed Secta to tell her what was planned. She nearly danced with joy for it, looking to the hall’s grand entrance.

“What is it?” Immanis wondered, his eyes widening, as he turned to look.

The doors were pulled open, and as dirty, bloody, ragged, exhausted prisoners began to be led in, each chained to the next, Jet leaned in, his lips nearly against Immanis’s ear, his whisper a warm caress against his Prince’s cheek. “I have brought you the surviving attackers of the Viridian Valley,” he murmured, listening to Immanis’s heartbeat turn to thunder. Jet’s lips curled in triumph as he purred, “My Immanis… You shall have a hunt.”

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DeathWatch No. 114 – That’s what I said!

This is Issue #114 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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“If you wanted intelligence, friend, y’shouldn’ve blowed up her fucking ship.” Nate’s laugh was real, but it cut off as the blow landed against his stomach. He doubled over, groaning, and was manhandled into a seat, and shackled there.

Sha sat next to him, eyeing her shackles, then rolling her eyes at Nate’s humor. “You’ll get yourself keelhauled you know,” she laughed darkly.

“Eh. I’ll piss all over Ilona while I’m up there,” Nate laughed.

The Ilonan in the room with them cuffed him in the back of the head, and finished bolting his chains to the floor. “Welcome aboard the Tropaeum,” he growled.

Beyond the humor, Nathan watched Sha, and Sha watched Nathan, both of them with eyes on the other’s face to assess pain and potential. Each of them tried to figure if they could get out of the trouble they were in, and whether the other could make it, if they tried to escape.

“You expect me to believe you simply rode a twin-screw into the ground, and walked away?” the Ilonan snorted.

“That’s what I said!” Nate said, tsking. “S’why she owes me another bottle,” he added, nodding to Sha. I’m all right. I promise.

She nodded to his arm, where it was still strapped against his body, bleeding sluggishly, useless.

He shrugged, and tried hard not to wince.

“You gave us quite a chase,” the man said, his lips pursed.

“Hard not to run when your downed ship is being fired on,” Sha muttered, rolling her eyes. “Wasn’t going to stay and wait for the welcoming committee — they seemed… I don’t know… angry about something.”

“Can we go back to the camp now? I loved the ambiance. Campfire. Rainstorms. Unholy screaming,” he offered, biting off those last words with bared teeth. His heart thundered in his chest; he had heard her voice. Jules. Her name rested behind his eyes, on his tongue, a prayer he whispered to himself almost constantly, when he wasn’t being watched. She was alive. She was alive, when she made that sound. Perhaps she was alive, still.

He was ignored, much to his chagrin.

Another Ilonan came in with a small sheaf of papers. He spoke lowly to the first man, and they eyed both Sha and Nate with distaste. When the second one left, the first one said, “You will be taken to Ilona proper, into the capital,” the man said dully. “You’ll be turned over to the Prince. His Majesty will do as he sees fit.”

“Oh, goody. I’ve always loved meeting royalty,” Nate said, wagging his eyebrows and grinning with great false cheer.

He received another punch, this time enough that he slumped in his chair, unconscious.

* * *

The reunion below decks was bittersweet. The crew was chained to one another, and to the ship itself, and the quarters were inhumanly close. When Sha and Nate were brought down, people gave a cry and a cheer, thrilled to see their Captain again.

“Hey now, hey now,” Sha said. “I’m glad to see you all, too. I figured it would be better if we all died together, eh?”

The gallows humor got a laugh and another cheer from the crew; even the cadets seemed heartened.

“Jules? Jules!” Nate cried, immediately looking for her. “Is she here? Did she make it?” he asked the chained soldiers and cadets.

A familiar voice answered, “She survived the fall. And the jump. And the first battle, and whatever questioning they put her through. Then she had a vision, and they took her away.” The sea of cadets and soldiers split, and Sha and Nate beheld Kieron, dirty, stitched, ragged, but alive. “I haven’t seen her since. They brought me down here a little while ago.”

“Fuck, Brody, you look like shit,” Nate said.

“And you, Commander, are a sight for sore eyes,” Kieron said, smiling exhaustedly.

Long minutes passed, or perhaps hours, while what was left of the crews of the Maxima and the Jacob shared stories and swapped quiet remembrances of fallen comrades.

The ship gave a lurch, suddenly, and the cadets froze, while seasoned airmen and women shrugged it off. It was one of the smoothest liftoffs they’d ever felt.

“Is she on the ship?” Nate wondered aloud. “Fuck, is she even on the ship?”

And that is when the door to the hold opened again, and soldiers marched in, dragging a small, angry form.

“Put me down! I can walk! Get your fucking hands off me! Let me fucking go!” Jules snarled, struggling and kicking at her captors.

An impassive, unfazed Ilonan chained her to another crewmember, and dropped her on the hold floor, and walked away.

She got up and moved to charge after him, but the chain wouldn’t go far enough, and she was jerked back, cursing and swearing up a storm. She only stopped, flicking her mussed copper curls out of her face when she turned around and saw Nathan there, plain as day, staring right back at her, goggle-eyed. “You,” she breathed. “Oh, you stupid, wonderful, crazy–”

He laughed aloud to see her, the sound ragged and triumphant all at once, his voice breaking as he exclaimed, “You daft, perfect, ridiculous–”

She reached to put her arms around him, but her chains kept her just shy of managing it; they rattled, and her hands strained, opened and shut at the end of her shackles, pulling at the cuffs. She uttered a low scream of frustration, thwarted from the only thing that mattered.

He reached for her, but had the same problem: his chains and his wounded arm kept him from getting close enough.

Snarling in frustration, Jules strained in her bonds, and managed to get her fingertips almost close enough to brush his. She felt like she could feel the heat of him, and her eyes fluttered shut as she leaned as far as possible, breathing it in in long, heavy gulps, desperate for the connection.

Nathan strained, shifting, reaching, and gritted his teeth against the agony. Something still felt wrong, pulled loose or torn, or perhaps simply cut too deep.

“Don’t,” Jules breathed, looking to him as though they were not surrounded by hundreds of the crew. “We’ll have time. Don’t hurt y–”

Nathan’s eyes seemed to light up; he pulled, growling, furious, determined, and the awful sound of his shoulder pulling from its socket was heard. He uttered a low cry and staggered the extra few inches, grabbing her hand with his, looking nearly faint.

The instant Jules’s palm slid over his, and her hand clutched it tight, Nate wept, bowing his head.

“I love you, Jules.”

“I love you, Nathan. Shh, shh, Einin,” Jules whispered, rubbing her thumb over the back of his hand. “Mo Einin. Na caoin — don’ cry, love. Don’ cry. You’re all right. I’m all right. We’ve lost some good ones, but we took some with us,” she whispered fiercely. “Don’ cry,” she pled, her own eyes filling with tears.

The two stood in the center of the hold, surrounded by their crewmates, but all alone in their brief connection, he with his head bowed, she with her eyes only for him.

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Servant

I imagine your lips,
parting,

soft and sweet,
crushed against mine,
delicate, a bruised flower

full of nectar,
dripping sweetness,
dropping slow honey
against your tongue.

I imagine your heartbeat as thunder,
and your touch as fire.

I crave you against all reason,
and know if you were to ask it of me,
I would submit utterly.

I am yours in all things,
for duty, for love,
for service, for pleasure.

Take note of my devotion
–it is unlike any other–
and even if
you will not love me,

witness my love,
and tell me
it pleases you.

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DeathWatch No. 113 – But Summus

This is Issue #113 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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She was awake. Suddenly. The bed creaked with the additional weight of someone kneeling over her. She stiffened, opening her eyes wide in the dark. A hand went over her mouth and nose, and something hot and stinging touched her throat. The burning came on hard and fast, and when the hand pulled away from her mouth, she struggled to breathe, to scream.

A lantern came on beside her, and Nixus’s hands and face came into view. She was covered in blood, and her eyes were wide and pained.

“You chose her instead of me, Coryfrater,” she hissed. “This is what you get. I’ve found a new family now. Vivat Tenebrae.”

Jules sat up, gagging, an awful whistling noise pounding in her ears. She couldn’t catch her breath, and all she could do was try to cough, but the front of her was drenched, soaked, she looked down at her hands as she felt a chill settle against her bones, sudden and freezing, and then all the world went dark.

* * *

“Commander. Commander!” Legatus Aecus’s voice was concerned.

Jules opened her eyes, frowning. “What?” She realized she was being hovered over by Coryphaeus, and she squirmed out from beneath him, distressed. Dizziness overwhelmed her, but she stood up, stepped back and sat on the edge of a footlocker, panting.

“Are you well?” he asked, concern on his features. “You fainted.”

For a moment, Jules was caught in how his eyes watched her, in how they seemed truly worried for her. “I slipped,” Jules corrected, looking around.

“There was nothing on th–”

“–the visions. The prophecy. Kieron calls it slipping. Where’s the Captain?” Jules wondered, still looking around, running her hands over her body, looking for gunshot wounds.

Navarchus,” Coryphaeus said. “He missed. Couldn’t focus because of his head injury. He’s been removed. I’ve taken temporary command of the ship while his primus has put him in the infirmary. You had another vision?”

“Nixus, again, Legatus,” Jules said, putting a hand to her neck, closing her eyes. She tried to rid herself of the feeling of her own steaming blood pouring over her hands, her chest, the bedsheets, but succeeded only in making herself nauseated. “She kills you because you believe me,” Jules explained.

“She’s out on the field. I’m more interested in why the navarchus tried to shoot you,” Coryphaeus sighed.

“I’ve been on this ship once already. I fell out of my ship, onto this ship, got captured, broke free, strangled the capt–navarchus–and jumped off this ship. Hit the ground, killed a small troop of Ilonans, ran for the hills, got captured by your troop, here we are,” Jules said tiredly.

“I fear the only reason I may need you to keep me alive is because I will be forever in danger if I attempt to keep you alive,” Coryphaeus muttered, rubbing his eyes.

“Faith’n’fuckall,” Jules sighed, exhausted. “Don’t seem like y’wrong, that’s f’sure.”

* * *

“But Summus — the Guardian’s orders were explicit. They must be brought to the capital to face judgment at once.”

Nixus leveled a sword at the runner, baring her teeth. “They want them at once? Fine. Commandeer the Tropaeum.”

“But Summus — the Tropaeum has already been commandeered. Legatus Aecus–”

“Damn him,” Nixus snarled under her breath. “Get another ship. We’ll bring back the prisoners, the legios, and–”

“But Summus— It was declared the soldiers would march back through each village, to assist the remaining villagers in reparations and to ready all defenses for other possible attacks before returning.”

“…You will gather the legionibus,” Nixus began, and when the runner opened his mouth again, she turned and looked at him with such fury, he closed his lips. She leaned in and shouted in his face, “If you ‘But Summus‘ me again, dromus, I will gut you from mouth to muttus, do you understand me?”

“Yes, Summus.”

“Now get out of my face. I’ll summon my own legio, and we shall march back toward Ilona, and when we return, the gates will open before us, returning heroes and re-builders of the nation,” Nixus hissed.

“Yes, Summus!”

* * *

“You’ve commandeered the ship,” Jules said, looking thoughtful.

“True,” Coryphaeus murmured.

“Have you given thought to my offer?” she wondered.

“I have.”

Jules looked to the Legatus, hopeful, almost wringing her hands.

Aecus began. “Commander, please understand, I–”

She interrupted him, when she saw he wasn’t complying. “I dinnae want to have to do this, Legatus, but you’re not leavin me with much of a choice now, are ye?” Jules said, lifting her chin and crossing her arms over her chest. “Agree to my offer, or I’ll have to tell your secret to whatever Ilonan will listen. And while they’re busy figuring out what to do with you, I and my crew will make a break for it. Once they know, no one will follow your orders, and you know it.”

Coryphaeus looked confused, for a moment, and his expression was half-pained, half bewildered.

“I was in your body, Legatus. I know you,” she said darkly. “All of you. And you’re Ilonan, that’s true, but it’s also true that we are more alike than I had ever imagined.”

Legatus Coryphaeus Aecus drew himself up sharply, and squared his jaw. Tears stung his eyes. He stared at Jules for long enough that she quailed and looked uncomfortable. “I had thought we had found common ground,” Aecus says softly. “I had believed us quite alike,” he said, swallowing roughly. “But now… I think you are more like my sister.” He turned away and went to the door.

Jules reeled as if slapped, and then her cheeks flushed red. “Legatus!” she called. “Wait — please, I–” Thoroughly embarassed, she gave chase.

He got his hand on the door when Jules was at his side, one hand at his shoulder. He shrugged it away, whirling around, passionate fury on his face. “How dare you,” he hissed, “use such a thing against me. You pretended to be civilized. Honorable.”

“Coryphaeus,” Jules pled. “You don’t understand–”

“What don’t I understand, Commander? What is it you think is so foreign to me that I cannot both comprehend it and yet deny you, according to my duty?” he wondered of her, his jaw clenched.

“I’m sorry–” Jules choked. “I just–” She panicked as he stared her down, unmoved.

Legatus Aecus shook his head, beyond hurt, and pulled open the door. He grabbed Jules, and hauled her through the portal, handing her over to another soldier. “Caliga — see this one is put in the hold with the others. Gag her and bind her,” he said, stalking away. “We lift off when the rest are in chains.”

Jules could see the white of his teeth bared in fury, and the pink rim of his eyelid, black lashes blacker, wet with disappointment as he refused to look at her until his last words, where her gut was twisted with chill.

“…And find me Summus Nixus.”

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