DeathWatch No. 76 – We Will Find Them

This is Issue #76 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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It was the smell that turned Jet’s stomach; it had an air of spit-roasted meat, but it was overlaid with the stink of a seized engine, and an electrical fire. Something of burned rubber and hair suffused everything, and clung to the bank of the tongue. He stood with Immanis and Lucida on the gangplank, looking out over the valley; the farmlands that had become nothing more than charnel-house.

The three and their retinue walked down into the streets, which had been somewhat cleared of bones. Buildings were rubble; some were still smoking. There were husks of the ship that had fallen; whatever came from it that could be used was being gathered up and sorted out.

The survivors were a hard lot, angry and tough, a small group of men and women, disconnected, without children, without families; Immanis took each of them into his arms and kissed their cheeks. Some of them had lost everyone — everyone of them had lost someone. Homes and cattle, usable fields and other property.

Children.

Not a single child survived the slaughter.

After meeting with everyone Immanis walked back to the ship, sobbing openly; that the westerners had come and done this was well-known, but the level of destruction could not be appreciated without seeing the scorched earth, the crumbled houses, the bodies that had become little more than blackened bone and rendered blood.

Those few who had lived were being given the choice of staying to rebuild, or coming to the capital, to try to make their fortunes. As they talked with one another and thought of their decisions — each could come alone, if they chose, or any number of them could stay. If they stayed, Immanis would send them a great deal of aid, and he would begin sponsoring other families to go to the farmlands to reclaim them — the rest of the city-states east of the Edge of Light would need the farmlands to survive.

Inside their airship, he poured himself a glass of aetheris and quietly seethed; both Jet and Lucida were too stunned to think about what had happened — they sat and drank with him, undisturbed until a runner begged for audience.

“Most venerable Lord,” the woman began, gasping for breath, waving away those who would bring her water and delay her from speaking. “One of the airships that did this — it has been spotted.”

Immanis stood, teeth bared. He looked every bit the hunter, his dark eyes gleaming, his body tensed as though ready to spring. He was nearly like a great desert cat, ready to strike, ready to bite. “It’s here?” he asked, as though he would go meet it on a challenge-field. As though he would tear it apart like some human opponent.

“No, my Lord, forgive me; it is north west of here, near the Pass of the Dead. But it is no longer headed away from here,” the runner explained. “Our own scouting forces on the ground were doing maneuvers. They have sent word through relays. The ship was leaving the territories, but then it… it stopped.”

“It is so low as to be recognizeable? Is it burning more land?” Lucida wondered, her eyes still shining from tears shed for so many lost souls.

“No – they say it is keeping well within cloud cover when possible; it’s simply that it stopped moving with them, and as the fronts have moved, it has been revealed. The underbelly of the ship is painted white, to match the clouds, but it has the figure of a woman on it. They recognize the icon as an old depiction of Eburneis Dea,” the runner explained.

Immanis sneered, furious. “They stole our lands, they stole our people — what, now they come back to murder thousands of innocents, to steal and corrupt our gods?” he hissed. “They take the face of our divinity and they corrupt it — use it for their own?” He looked up at the runner, and in a fit of pique might have ordered her to do something horrifying, were it not for Lucida’s hand at his shoulder.

“We will find them,” she said gravely.

Jet reached, and put his hand on Immanis’s other shoulder. His dark eyes burned hot; his touch was feverish, and Lucida thought perhaps it was not purely her imagination to hear the low roar of an inferno behind his words as he quietly whispered, “And kill them.”

The runner looked petrified, and trembled as she offered up, “There is one more piece of news.” She looked down at her feet, and then looked up once more, wringing her hands. Being in the presence of Immanis himself was excruciating and wondrous all at once.

Immanis, in all his glory, looked upon the runner with expectation — she nearly fainted on the spot in her desire to please.

Once she gathered her courage, she cleared her throat, and spoke. “Your men, while exploring the ruins, found another survivor.”

“This is wonderful,” Immanis said, his face brightening, echoing the ease of his heart. Each survivor was to be treasured; that so many had been lost was a shocking thing, gruesome and horrifying. “Bring them to me immediately. I have physicians I have brought. We will nurse him to health. Is he family or friend to any of the others?”

“No, sir,” the runner said, looking grave. She had the look of someone with desperately important news that did not wish to state it, in fear of retribution. Given the look on her Lord’s face, it was not an unfounded one.

“What is it?” Immanis hissed, looking impatient.

Jet and Lucida leaned in, watching the runner; neither of them were ready for her next words.

She wrung her hands and shrank back from the lot of them, licking her lips as she tried to find her voice again. When at last she spoke, it came in a rush, a sudden outpouring of information that was only a trickle of a message, but was a flood of meaning:

“…he is a survivor of the ship that fell. He… he says he was its Captain.”

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Oops!

Two posts today? Apparently I got the scheduler all confused.

Maybe that means I’ll delay tomorrow’s #Deathwatch until Tuesday?

Muahahaha.

I’m kidding — I’m kidding!

Probably.

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Bless This House

With all its cracks and crumbles,
with all its fur and dust,
with all its snakes and vermin,
with all its mold and must,
with all its screams and crying,
with all its blood and bone,
bless this house, dread Lord,
because it is my own.

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Remind Me

Remind me;

sometimes it escapes me
that I never loved you,
only obsessed about you.
Sometimes I can’t remember
the asshole you were,
and the pathetic,
spineless
thing
you made me.

Remind me;

open your mouth.
Say something,
anything —
I never want to forget again,
lest I find myself at your doorstep,
at your feet
on my knees.

Remind me,

remind me,

just how terrible you were —
if you do that for me,
I’ll show you
just how good
I’ve got it now —
it’s only fair.

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DeathWatch No. 75 – Lost In Translation

This is Issue #75 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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“How’s everyone taking it?” Sha lounged in her room, holding a glass of something potent, and looked over paperwork. A pair of glasses perched on the end of her nose gave her an almost kindly, bookish look. She turned, curious, and said, “Are you even listening to me?” She stared at the back of the man who was watching the sky from the portholes in her rooms. He held a glass that held the same thing Sha’s did, but he seemed oddly disinterested.

“Sorry — I was…I think Jules is knocked up,” Nathan blurted.

“Oh for heavens–” Sha looked exasperated. “It’s a good damned thing we’re headed back. The two of you could put in for completion. You’ve done enough tours. You could be active, but not afield? How far along? She isn’t round yet.”

“I don’t know. She hasn’t mentioned it,” Nate murmured.

“Then what the fuck makes you think–”

“–vomiting. She can’t sleep. She looks exhausted. She doesn’t want to–”

“Her ship blew up, you ass,” Sha snapped. “Think maybe she’s depressed?”

He looked hurt, turning back around to face the woman. His expression was offended, but not indignant. “Why’re you–”

“We’ve never gone home early, Nate,” Sha sighed. “I know it wasn’t us, but it feels like failure. We’re going to have to explain what happened, and I’m not sure I want to.”

“I know,” he said, and he crossed to Sha, and gently caressed her cheek, fingertips familiar with the crease of her smile. He leaned down and kissed her then, and said “It’s late. Call’s already been made. We’re turned and headed to the Notch. Gator will make all the calculations, and we’ll be sailing through it by breakfast. Then we’ll burn a hot trail all the way back to the depot, meet up with brass, and see who’s staying, and who isn’t.”

She nodded, stood with him, and kissed him soundly, then said, “Drink up, and fuck off, Quartermaster. It’s late, and I’m still exhausted, myself. Maybe tomorrow while we’re going against the wind, we’ll hunker down in here and talk to Jules, yeah?”

He pulled back from the kiss, grinning crookedly, and said, “Yeah. If that’s… really happening–” He paused, saying nothing, but the light in his eyes told the story he couldn’t say aloud. The rest of his glass was emptied, and he kissed Sha once more, saying, “Ready to be an auntie?”

She laughed, shooed him out, and shut the door behind him.

Before he headed to his own bunk, he went up out to the deck, and made his circuit; even when he wasn’t on watch, he liked to check in with people, breathe in the night air, and watch the moon for awhile.

At the rear of the ship, he came upon something that made him wish he was truly sober; he saw a figure up on the rails — no rigging harness, no rope. It looked like he or she was wearing a backpack — perhaps a parachute, though it would be hard to make enough of a leap from the rear and not get burned in the engine wake. He approached carefully, feeling his heart slowly creep up in his throat. “Hold up, cadet,” he called out quietly. “Whatever it is, m’sure it’ll look a damned site better in the morning.”

The heart he felt pounding stopped dead and cold when the cadet turned around.

“It won’t,” Kieron said. “Not if I end up on the wrong side of the ridge by morning.”

“What.. what are you doing, Brody? I’m not fucking sober enough for this,” he said, moving to join Kieron on the railing. He grabbed ropes and made his booted feet manage the trip; when he got to the other man, Nathan reached out and touched Kieron’s shoulder. “Hey,” he murmured. “What the fuck’s going on?”

“I can’t go back,” Kieron answered. “I can’t. Jet’s still out there, Nate. He’s still in Ilona. With the Prince. He’s… he’s in danger. I can tell. I can–” His voice grew high and tight, and he bowed his head, feeling tears in his eyes. He turned and looked at Nathan, desperate. “I can’t. If this ship goes through that ridge, Nate–” His eyes were wide, wild, almost panicked. “I can’t be on it.”

* * *

“We’ll meet here in, what, twelve hours? Seems like forever.” The trains rushed past the two men talking; as they went further and further into the station, the Kriegsman walked further from the young man in uniform.

“It’s only twelve hours.” The Kriegsman was older than the uniformed man — an infantry cadet, it looked like.

“And you’re sure you don’t want me to come with you?” Ever hopeful, the cadet reached for the Kriegsman’s hand, and curled his fingers there.

The Kriegsman gently took his hand back. “It’s just a funeral, Nathan.”

“It’s your mother, Danny.” Nathan’s voice was gentle, kind.

Danny’s was… not. “She didn’t like me very much.”

“Well it’s not like I’d be meeting her. I can meet everyone else.”

“They won’t like you that much.”

“They’ll love me. Everyone loves me.”

“They won’t love us.” Danny’s comment was short and to the point; he turned to look at Nathan, pursing his lips.

Nathan’s expression shifted to crestfallen. “…oh,” was all he could think of to say.

The barest hint of apology came to Danny’s eyes; he reached out and patted Nathan’s shoulder. “Won’t be long, vännen. It’s just something I must do.”

Nathan looked up to his companion and said, “Come back to me, Danny.”

“Of course. And then you can take the rest of your leave with me?”

“I’ll take the rest of my life with you, Danival.”

In what seemed an uncharacteristic display of affection for a Kriegsman, Danny leaned in close, and pressed his lips to Nathan’s forehead. “Snälla förlåt mig,” he whispered.

“…what’s that mean?” Nathan had wondered, his eyes bright.

“It means I’ll see you soon.”

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“Hey, hey–” Nathan began, squeezing Kieron’s shoulder. “It’ll be–”

“No!” Kieron said, and when he turned, one of his boots nearly slipped off the polished railing. “No, you don’t understand!” he cried, jabbing a finger against Nathan’s chest. “I never should have left him! He’s there because of me! He’s out there, Nathan, because of me!” Kieron’s voice broke as he smacked his hand against his own chest, beating his fist against his uniform, eyes full of blame, teeth gritted to hold back the tears. “He loved me for years, and my father tried to crush it, but he didn’t care. I was the scared one, Nate. I ran away, not just to save him, but because I was scared,” he admits, and his shoulders sag in defeat. He let go of the rigging to wipe tears from his eyes, and took a step back to reorient himself.

His boots slipped again, but this time he wasn’t holding himself steady.

“Brody!” Nathan moved fast; he had an arm around Kieron’s waist, and he pulled them both off the edge, dropping to the deckboards, pulling the cadet into his arms, embracing him fiercely. “Fuck,” he breathed, swaying on the deck, keeping Kieron on his feet, shushing him. He pulled back, and put his hands on Kieron’s shoulders.

“He’s going to die,” Kieron whispered. “I see it. I see it constantly. Over and over again, Nate. I can’t do this. I can’t. He’s gonna die.”

Nate shook his head, and leaned in to kiss Kieron’s forehead, closing his eyes.

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The train station was quiet and empty, in the wee hours. Hardly anyone ever took the trains at night. A lone figure sat on a bench, waiting.

Still waiting.

It had been not twelve hours, but thirty-six.

Without word.

When the last train of the night pulled up, Nathan could see a tall, imposing figure on it; his heart leapt. When the Kriegsman disembarked, Nathan was astonished and disappointed beyond measure to realize it wasn’t Danival — just some other brilliantly tall, beautiful blonde man. He had been half-running toward him, but then he stopped, shoulders slumping. The other man noticed him at that point, however, and in a low, heavily accented voice, asked, “I help you?”

“I just… thought you were someone else,” Nathan said, shrugging. “Someone… someone gave me a message, but I… I think I got it wrong. I was supposed to meet him here. I thought you were him. He’s uh. He’s a Kriegsman as well; you’re all so damned tall–”

The man raised a brow, and Nathan cleared his throat, glancing away. “Sorry. I, ah. Sorry.” He shrugged, and then laughed, and it was a bitter thing, covered in a joke, as he said, “I must’ve lost something in the translation, you know?”

“What was message?” the man asked. “You have? If is in Kriegic, I translate.”

“It..” Nathan looked pained, but blurted out, “Snälla… snälla förlåt mig.”

The man blinked, looking at Nathan, and then his expression shifted from ‘curious’ to ‘saddened’. “Ah. Yes. I see. Message means this: Your… your friend? Is not coming.”

Nathan’s expression shifted back and forth between agony and rage a hundred thousand times in but a moment. “Thank you,” he whispered, gritting his teeth, struggling not to cry. “I, ah. I must have… maybe I misheard him,” he said, clearing his throat.

“Perhaps,” the man said. “The real translation of ‘snälla förlåt mig’ is ‘Please, forgive me’.

Nathan’s shoulders slumped, and he wiped tears from his eyes as he said, “Right. I’d… I’d better go. I’ll miss the ship back.”

“You wear a walking soldier’s clothes,” the man noted. “Where is your ship taking you?”

“Dunno. Got asked by a scouting ship to sign up,” he said, peeling off his infantry overcoat and tossing it onto the bench. He looked at the empty track and shook his head, then smiled bitterly to the other Kriegsman. “Why not? Guess there’s nothing keeping me here.”

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“We’re all gonna die, Brody,” Nathan said, opening glittering eyes to the here and now. He then released Kieron, wearing a smile that Kieron could tell wasn’t entirely happy. “But maybe… maybe you don’t have to lose him, just yet.” And with that, he ran off, booted feet stomping across the boards.

“Nate? Nate!” Kieron began, stunned. He touched his forehead. “Where’re you going?”

“Can’t turn the ship around from there, Brody,” he called back over his shoulder. “Gotta get to the pilot’s seat!”

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