DeathWatch No. 104 – You And Your Soldiers

This is Issue #104 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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With his sharp steel put away, the high-ranking Ilonan who faced down Djara bore a thin-lipped grin that wasn’t even smug — simply somewhere between arrogant and resigned. He seemed faintly put out by the battle on his home soil, as though he had better things to take care of, and the contempt with which he viewed the invaders wasn’t disguised in the slightest, except with perhaps the faintest bit of curiosity. At first, he did not respond to her words, to her proclamation, and the words hung in the air, a threat of violence that echoed the screaming, snarling fights that were occurring in the once-green fields further south, with other crewmembers that had fallen and not yet found comrades. Finally, he took a step forward, as though acknowledging her hatred, her fury. He stared at Djara, and his eyes were dark and cold as he said, “Kneel. You live if you kneel. I will bring you in if you yield. If you attack–”

Jules interrupted his offer, and shouted a long string of unintelligible curses, most of which Kieron couldn’t understand, but imagined were Kriegic. They sounded angry enough to be Kriegic, at least, all full of harsh gutturals, animalistic in its sound and intensity. She was red in the face and clenching her fists, holding tight to the gun in her hand, not yet ready to surrender it to the approaching enemy.

The crew looked almost amused at the outburst, heartened that she was not cowed, while a few of the Ilonans looked almost scandalized, and glanced to their commander as though for reassurance.

Djara lifted a bloodied hand, the red of it gleaming dully against the dark earth of her skin, looking furious and broken, and shouted to the crew, “Do as they say!” She looked back over her shoulder to Jules.

The Maxima‘s former Quartermaster had a pale face, and trembled as she stared at the Ilonans, who had them surrounded, and then she looked to Djara, pleading and warning all at once.

Djara looked back over her shoulder to Jules, and shook her head, tears streaming down her face, and she moved as to bend a knee, her face crumpling in grief.

One by one, the soldiers in Kieron’s group began to kneel, looking lost to do so. His knees ached and his ankle throbbed in agony as he dropped down, looking at Jules, then at Djara. You’d better have one fuck of a plan, he thought. We can’t just surrender; they’ll kill us anyway.

Djara sobbed aloud as she let one knee touch the sodden earth. One hand reached out to grasp the enemy’s uniform to steady herself as she sagged, uttering a wail of despair.

The Ilonan reached a gloved hand to pluck her fingers free of the sash over his jacket, saying, “You and your soldiers will be taken to–”

And with that, Djara curled her fingers around the hand that moved to hold hers, and used it to rise swiftly, driving her knife up and into his soft belly.

Kieron gaped, moved to stand back up, but his injured leg folded beneath him, and he went down with a cry, rolling and lifting his taser to try to defend himself.

The Ilonan exhaled suddenly, forcefully, and could not draw breath again as Djara stood tall, lifting him up with her strike, the punchknife that had been concealed in her fist resting firmly under his ribs. Blood poured out over her hand, steaming in the chill of the day’s storm, black-red against the purple-grey of the world.

It was the signal the rest of the crew had been waiting for, perhaps — those who had served with Djara before rose and launched themselves at the Ilonans, screaming and fighting with every last ounce of will they possessed. They might be oughtnumbered, but they weren’t going to go down easy. The cadets standing with them only hesitated a moment before stepping in to the fray. Jules began to take quick shots against anyone close enough she could get, aiming for vitals, occasionally managing to put the muzzle of her pistol to the eye of an Ilonan. The fight grew ever more gory, minute by minute, until the mud beneath their struggling boots was red and black.

Djara reached up with her other hand to clutch the Ilonans’s throat, watching his face as she squeezed the last of the life from him, punching him again and again, each landed blow opening him up further, spilling more blood, until she was soaked in it, and he had gone still. She threw the Ilonan down and threw herself into the battle, stabbing and slicing, no longer simply a woman but also a machine made for death. She felled three more Ilonans before Kieron managed to take down one, and when it was over, and the small skirmish had ended, even Hana stood tall, trembling, a gash on one cheek, with dead bodies at her feet.

Regrouping, doing a headcount, checking the wounded, Jules redistributed recovered weapons, and helped Kieron get on his feet. “That’s gonna slow you down,” she noted.

“No more than the bullet holes,” Kieron grimaced, looking at the blood on his uniform.

“Duly noted,” Jules said, rolling her eyes. “All right, everyone! Let’s keep moving to higher ground. Up this hill, and to the forests. We’ll be able to hide, might even get some rest!”

“We’ll have to move fast,” Hana called. “There’s a lot more Ilonans on the ground than I would have expected coming from the Domitors!”

Kieron worked to keep up, walking with everyone, panting and gritting his teeth against the pain of his foot. “They must’ve had–”

“Reinforcements,” said Jules, stopping at the crest of the hill.

As the rest of the crew joined her, they saw why she simply set down her gun, and lifted her hands up and out. Even she knew when she was beat — she was ready to fight, but not against an entire assembly of Ilonan cavalry.

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Hamlet

I have learned about myself
things I didn’t want to know.
I didn’t dig these things up;
I left them, let them lie,
for a reason.
A reason that escapes me now;
what have I been afraid of?
The answers, maybe,
that will set the world free.
It might’ve been better
to stay chained, might’ve been better
to be the thing
that kept remembering
13 ways of looking at
anything but a blackbird
but kept it to himself
and never opened his mouth
to speak the truth —
no one ever really wants the truth
as much as they say they do.
It’s hard when you realize
you’re nothing like
you wanted to be.
Harder, still, to forge a new path.
Harder, still, to leave the world behind
when it is all you have ever known.

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Under the Tracks

Poppies in
the rear view mirror.
I look back,
and I imagine
what I remember.
Red blossoms
across a white shirt,
a white throat.
Flanders Fields,
for an army of angels
who had no wings
and no idea
but plenty of ideals.
Would he have lasted three days
before he put a bullet
in his brain?
Would she?
Would I?

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I’m too cold

and I have nothing left to give
I have nothing left in me
I am nothing left
I hope tomorrow is better than tonight
but if I go to bed,
oh god what happens if I go to bed
and then I wake up tomorrow morning
which is only a few hours from now
what happens if I go to bed
and all I need
is for the next day
to have some kind of new beginning,
new awakening,
but then I wake up
and it isn’t?

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Audio #DeathWatch Update!

You may have noticed the Audio Version of #DeathWatch hasn’t come out — but I have a good reason, I swear.

I started recording, and I was doing just fine until it came time to ‘do the voices’.  In my head, it was to be just a read-aloud version of each episode, rather than having real sound-effects or anything post production, like a radio drama. As it was pointed out to me, one reader envisioned it as me reading it like I’ve read other books aloud — I ‘do the voices’, and I’m rather enthusiastic. I like speaking with accents that are different from my own. Makes for a fun time all around. Unfortunately, it occurred to me (much too late to gracefully handle it) to question these characters who will have different voices… as in: what kind of voices will they have?  In my head, my set of characters, who are rather diverse along racial lines, class lines, sexual orientation/presentation lines, etc… could already be cast in a movie.  I have a picture in my head, how they look, how they sound, how they move.

There’s a bunch of different accents in there — British, German, Russian, Scottish, Irish, American Deep South, Japanese, Egyptian, Indian, Saudia Arabian…. and then I hit a wall.

I had to ask myself “Self? Are you about to knock over someone with your invisible backpack?”

Then Self had to say “Uh. I don’t fucking know. Shit. A little help here!”

So since Self’s not any help, I’m asking you guys:

Is it okay for me to mimic the speech patterns and vocal tones of other people/races while creating this?

The setting of DeathWatch is a FAR FAR FAR flung alternate future Earth, after .  I picked geographical areas that made sense in my head, and ran with it.  I’m using Earth languages, earth dialects — the things my characters are saying could be translated back to English and/or I could show you the phrasing of what I’ve picked, in the languages I’m using, so theres a modicum of in-world justification for how/why people would sound like I think they do. Centralites are from certain areas, while the folks on the other side of the Luminora (Ilonans, Tenebrians, etc) are from other areas.

It’s possibly an overdone western-fantasy-trope, but by splitting the main cast so you get BOTH perspectives, I was hoping to avoid a strict ‘othering’.

But I still don’t know if it would be insensitive of me to ‘do the voices’  — to read aloud and pretend the accents, for the sake of fun, when reading.  Is it a version of appropriation? Is it just outright racist?

I don’t know.

I’m positive this is a case of my backpack getting in my way, and I am way too close to the situation to figure it out myself. I’ve done a bunch of reading, and I’m learning more and more how to make sure I don’t write insensitively, but the audio version presents a whole bunch of new challenges, and my Google-fu simply isn’t giving me any real answers.

So I’m asking you, readers. Could I get some input? All you POC who read #DeathWatch — would you be comfortable giving your opinion? If not in the comments, then you could email me — catastrophe dot jones at gmail dot com — if you don’t mind? I want to do this well; it’s important to me not just that I’m not called out on it, but that I actually do the best I can to not be insensitive, or outright offensive.  Please let me say I recognize that not any one person can speak for all others — I know I can’t get a single token POC to give me the go-ahead, but I definitely need some points of view that aren’t mine.

 

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