DeathWatch II No. 40 – How Did It Go?

This is Issue #40 of DeathWatch, Book II: tentatively called Heart Of Ilona, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find DeathWatch, the first in the series, or start from the beginning of Book II!

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“How did it go?” Secta asked lowly, lightly, peeling bloodied clothes from Jet’s frame, carefully bundling them for the laundry.

“As well as could be expected.” Jet’s voice was quiet, thoughtful. “Once Ferro had calmed down, he was able to accept what had happened. Lucida promised me the Guild was a necessary evil, and so I didn’t compel him into service, nor did I demand he disband. We’ll discuss all of that later, but at the moment, I believe he is spending the last few hours before dawn in a sort of frenzied messaging spree.” Silent for a moment, Jet let Secta undress him entirely, and lead him into the bath, which had been drawn just long enough that it was the perfect temperature to enter. He soaked for awhile, and then finally spoke. “It seems, also, that the entire encounter had been broadcast, which is a fair deal of publicity that quelled the city’s desire to witness a sort of righteous violence, and give them a sense of civic rightness to get behind,” he said, turning to look at Secta.

“Mmm,” was Secta’s eventual noncommittal response; he continued to clean up and attend to Jet, smiling faintly. He stripped down to his underthings, having bloodied his other clothes in undressing Jet, and went about gathering what he would need to continue ministering to his Guardian.

He carefully mixed a shaving foam and applied it to Jet’s skin, lathering his cheeks, his jaw, his throat, carefully daubing his upper lip, never meeting Jet’s eyes.

Silence reigned for several moments, as Jet watched Secta expertly shave him with the long, sharp blade. “Once it aired,” Jet mused, while Secta was cleaning the lather from the razor, “there was a marked decline in the rioting.” His golden eyes settled on Secta, watching, one brow quirked.

“You don’t say,” Secta murmured, leaning to get one side of Jet’s jaw.

When Secta went back to shaving, Jet pursed his lips briefly, as though pondering being irritated. “Seemed like a stroke of luck,” Jet said, pointedly, still staring at his famulo.

Secta did not look directly at Jet, and when he tilted the other way to bring the blade to Jet’s skin, Jet reached up and grabbed his wrist firmly.

Secta flinched as Jet pulled his wrist closer, and when the blade bit into Jet’s skin, Secta dropped it, alarmed. Blood welled, and Secta reached a hand to press it against the wound. “Master,” he breathed.

“You must get used to the idea of being noticed now, my Secta,” Jet said quietly.

A flush of pride colored the young man’s cheeks. I belong to you. He closed his eyes, lifting his hand from skin that had already seared shut beneath his touch, and looked at the blood and ash on his palm.

Jet took Secta’s hand and kissed the palm, then licked his lips, feeling his own heart quicken. He fished the razor from the bath, and handed it back to his famulo, saying, “What has changed? Something has changed.”

Secta frowned slightly, but then resumed Jet’s shave, quietly avoiding the answer. When he finished, he carefully took a hot cloth and wiped Jet’s face clean, leaning close, watching his face, their eyes finally meeting. Usually, Secta would turn away, blushing, but instead, he simply gazed upon Jet for long moments, silent.

“You no longer act as simply a servant, my Secta,” Jet declared softly.

Fear touched Secta’s face. He looked at Jet with widening eyes, saying, “I am ever your servant. I am loyal, please, I–”

“You are loyal,” Jet said softly. “You have always been. I am not denying this.” He moved to get up out of the bath, standing, dripping on the smooth, warmed tile.

“Then nothing has to change.” Secta said, moving to wrap a towel around Jet’s body, to let him walk about while he dried off. He knelt before Jet, sliding the towel against his hips, his thighs, and tucked the towel against Jet’s waist. He stood up, felt too close to the Guardian, and stepped back.

The movement lit up Jet’s face; the predator in him recognized the response, and he advanced. The towel dropped; Secta backed up as if to run, but was stopped by the counter, and Jet came behind him, to pin him against the marble.

Jet wrapped his arms around his famulo and bent him back against the marble sinktop, whispering against the hollow of his throat. “Everything changes, my Secta.”

My Secta.

Secta turned his head, gasping, breathless, his heart thundering in his chest, a measure of both fear and need twisting his features.

Jet could see Secta’s pulse in his neck. He closed his eyes, bowed his head. He put his lips to that spot, against the smooth, hot skin, and breathed in. The scents — steam, skin, soap — filled him, and he remembered the feeling of Kieron’s frame pressed to his. Candlewicks drowning in their wax, his fingers twined with Kieron’s, and as the moon sank, and the world outside slid toward its darkest hour.

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Their second kiss had been no less fumbling than the first, though it was long, and sweet, and settled the idea of Kieron leaving alone, or so Jet had thought.

By the fourth kiss, Kieron had wound his hands in Jet’s dark hair.

Jet had lost count by the time he had to pull back just enough to catch his breath, leaning forehead to forehead, dizzied.

Eager to hold on to the feeling, the sudden rush that made his heart pound, Kieron put his arms around Jet, who returned the gesture and they shuffle-stumbled their way to Kieron’s bed, laughing when Jet tripped, and again when Kieron did, shushing one another as they fell into one another’s arms.

It was only kissing for what felt like lifetimes, dreamy and slow alternating with frantic and grasping. He remembered being astonished at every new feeling, overwhelmed by the heat of the moment, full of wonder at the taste of Kieron’s skin as their kisses moved, as Jet slid his lips over Kieron’s jaw and down his throat.

He remembered the sound of his own name on Kieron’s tongue, and how he could not help but say Kieron’s over and over again, meditative, a quiet prayer to the first custodian of his heart.

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100 Words: Rise and Fall

Swell of waves
I don’t savor it anymore
don’t wanna pay for it anymore
up, down
inside out you turn and twist me
You dunno how much you missed me
what’s the point of those misty eyes
Finally realized
swingsets make me sick
sick enough to not pick
merry go rounds
around and around
Get a little less up
and a little more down
Looking more for steady
maybe I’m not ready
maybe I grew out of every desire but stable
I’m not able
to be as carefree
as you want me
to be every day
what’s it matter anyway

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Rhythm and Howls

If I
close my eyes
and never open
them again,
how much
will change for me,
for me right now?
How much
will things become
like dreams
and nightmares,
and
how much
will they stay
just as they are?

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Grasp

Too
much, too
tight, holding
onto the
thing that
slips
through fingers like
water, like
sand. Heavy
eyelids and slack
jaw.
Exhaustion makes
every
thing so very
fucking
heavy.

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Disconnection: End I

It was the rain that he hadn’t counted on that was proving to be the death of them all. Feet splished through shallow puddles, rapidfire footsteps, run run running like all hell was at their heels – maybe it was. Those who were wounded already, though, took the brunt of the deluge something like vapid turkeys, pausing in their steps to stare up at the sky, dumbly smiling, faces pattered by crystalline drops. Hands would reach; he watched it from his bunker, his own hands curled around the latest hard copies, eyes glued to the screens.

He watched the networks disintegrate, thread by thread, link by link. Slowly but surely, Nex was being cut off, excised from the main host like some unwanted piece of cancerous flesh, already rotting from the inside out.

They’d stand there, staring up at the void of the sky, wondering at the sensation, and then the snipers picked them off, easy shots to wing them, drop them, leave them feeling rain pour from the sky and blood pour from the body. Cold coming down, warm coming out.

Later, when the scavenging hordes would slip out to see what could be used, he’d watch the bodies dragged away, pieces taken from them for useful gear, sometimes simply for trophies.

Already the collective that had been hundreds of millions strong was dwindling into the low thousands.

Standing behind the clear Perspex wall, he looked out over the remains of the city itself, where fires were burning near, and all the way to the horizon, dots of blazing blood and gold, grey smoke lifting toward a starless sky. The rain wasn’t doing much of a job of putting any of the flames out, but it shorted enough sparks all the same.

Word reached him through the soundstream that another three triads were lost, and he switched his vision away from realtime to the datalines, stripping the necessary information from the wave while his eyes flicked over the rest, skimming pertinent news items.

Another false offer of truce had been put out; no matter how he tried to immunize his forces against such rumors, he would lose three or four percent to the dirty tricks. Too tired (or sometimes too damned arrogant) to be wary of viruses once the gossip of peace came out, operatives would finally drop into idle, giving their grey matter a much needed rest. Too many of them were too tired to remember to disconnect. Passing dreamwards meant actual rest and regenerative sleep, but the bots lurking in the shadows of subroutines would seek out those most vulnerable, and introduce into them seeds of destruction, worms that fattened on data and shat garbage strings expansive enough to break every overflow buffer between syncpoint and the main host.

At turnover, the number of logons would be down, due to sheer exhaustion, but then there would be those who would never unidle. Lost in the network, their ghosted connections would remain, glimpses of nightmares shrieking, new obstacles for the runners to avoid.

By the time he released the datalines and his pupils shrank again, eyes refocusing on the here and now, the downpour was at its worst. Reports of the last of the wireless nodes coming down were coming in via the rest of the reliable methods, and he could feel isolation at the door, its knock getting louder. He didn’t have much time to bring them back together, if he was going to bother.

“Call them in,” he said quietly, his unnecessary voice rasping but still translated through the sound interface to various languages. His shoulders slumped; he was only a picture of a man, defeated, but he couldn’t leave them out in that.

It was over; it had happened.

Disconnection.

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