DeathWatch II No. 48 – I’m coming, my love

This is Issue #48 of DeathWatch, Book II: tentatively called Heart Of Ilona, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find DeathWatch, the first in the series, or start from the beginning of Book II!

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Far in the distance, to the north, he saw what looked like storm clouds on the distant horizon; he knew better. He remembered hearing from Danival about how the Kriegic war machine was simply far more advanced than what Centralis had organized. He had envisioned skies so darkened with ships the sun would be blotted — he could see now, he wasn’t far off.

He shook his head, clearing his mind, and glanced back up toward the ship he was escaping.

Lorem Tenuis hadn’t been a man who paid attention to Immanis’s hunts; the ship’s crew hardly cared — they saved their bets for less fatal fight matches, as well as bird and dog fighting. Nate didn’t remember the ship receiving word that Immanis had died. He wondered if the navarchus would try to reach the Prince, and when he learned Immanis was dead, if he would instead speak to the Princess, to tell them of the Kriegic invasion.

He wondered if that would make any difference.

The sun glinted off the wings he’d been given, and far below, one or two Ilonans marveling at the beautiful sky happened to notice something glittering in the heavens, but it was there and gone again, like so many other moments.

The beauty of Ilona was easy to see, from so far up; he stared out over swaths of lush farmland and forest, lazy, crawling rivers, outlying villages, and the sprawl of the magnificent city that curled around the bottom tip of the inland sea. The outer wall was only a formality in places, while an inner jungle was contained on three sides by a massive wall, and on the fourth by the very cliff he’d fallen from.

Shoulda seen it; boy FLEW.

He remembered rolling, tumbling. The knife went in at his shoulder; Immanis stabbed him again and again.

It all happened so fast.

In his last moment before the drop, he remembered seeing Kieron tear away from Garrett and run for him.

He remembered thinking how terrible he felt for the boy, how he knew he couldn’t be saved, how Kieron would blame himself. He grabbed for the grass, the rocks, even as he felt himself tipping over that ledge, and he cursed the mud, the rain, cursed Immanis, cursed himself, and–

Is that why you fell?

It was that cliff he soared to, not quite a mark on any screen, too small, even with his massive wings, to be noticed by the machines that scanned the skies looking for Kriegic invaders.

* * *

He touched down in the clearing near the cliff’s edge, booted feet landing where the ground was scored and scuffed from the battle. The dead had been taken, but he could still see the spot where Daya had fallen. He wondered if, after he’d gone over the edge, they’d managed to escape.

He ran into the jungle itself, sticking to larger paths, considering his wings, trying to keep them from being tangled. He realized after awhile he needn’t have worried; the feathers were sharp; he sliced through underbrush and vine if it resisted him. He thundered back through the trees, circling, looking for a sign. For anything.

He remembered now that Immanis had gone over with him — that he’d killed the Guardian to save Kieron, and might’ve saved Coryphaeus by taking Immanis down. Now, however, he had no idea of where to begin. Had Coryphaeus gotten them out? Had anyone survived? Had they gone to get Jules from the palace?

Was she locked up in a cabinet, like Lorem’s seer had been?

That thought seized Nate’s heart; he clenched his fists so hard his ring bit into his finger, and he felt his jaw tighten. He ran back for the clearing, teeth bared, tears in his eyes, only one thought in his mind.

Nothing will stop me.

His wings flared out, and beat down once, twice; he felt the muscles in his back and shoulders protest, but he ran for the cliff, determination on his face, and without a heartbeat of hesitation, he leapt out over the edge. Rather than plunge down into the water, he caught an updraft and swung out over the bay, then circled back toward the city; he was low enough now that he would be below the radar anyway, but people would be more likely to see him.

There was no way he would be forgettable, now — not like this.

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He landed on a flat rooftop as the last of the sun was dying. He stretched, cracking his neck, and looked around in an attempt to get his bearings. There was the Palace, not far. It seemed the most likely place to begin. Dropping down into an alleyway, he pulled a shirt from someone’s laundry line, and pulled it carefully over his shoulders, tearing it to let the wings free. A cloak went over the whole mess, and he pulled the mechanical things in as tightly as possible, trying to hide himself. He caught sight of his profile in a reflection on a broken public viewscreen, and decided to pull the hood up and add a pack to the outfit.

When he bent and moved slowly, he simply looked like some sort of hunchback, not like any kind of threat at all.

Once he felt he was less visible, he sat in a public area and watched screens for awhile, trying to get a sense of how the city was feeling; he saw wanted posters, advertisements, endorsements, news about schools and temples and public events.

Every hour there was a moment of silence for the Prince.

He wondered if the viewing of the event had been well-filmed enough that he would be recognizable to the general public, and decided to pull his hood a little higher, letting his face be entirely hidden in shadow.

He strode toward the palace, trying to stick to the shadows, one foot in front of the other, determined to get back to Jules, no matter what stood in his way.

Tá mé ag teacht, mo ghrá,” he said softly.

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100 Words: Just A Little

“I just need a little.”

“No.”

“I’m weaning.”

“No.”

“I can get it without you.”

Silence. Was that the way in?

“You can’t keep me here.”

Nothing.

“Please.”

“No.”

“It hurts. You don’t even know. You don’t know this kind of hurt.”

He turned too-blue eyes to her, and she pulled back, staring at them, afraid she might lose herself in them.

Or find herself.

“I can’t do this. I just need a little.”

“No.”

“You don’t have to punish me to make a point.”

The look he gave her just then was more punishment than anything else, so far.

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100 Words: Flinch

“End it already!” Redrimmed eyes glared.

“Right.” He was terse, so full of snark, it stung. “Cos that’s what I do, innit? End things? Weapons like you?”

“Fuck you,” she hissed. “You know why you have to. You know what I’ll do to you. To everyone.”

“We’ll sort it,” he said. “Now eat. Y’not thinking straight because y’aven’t in three bloody days.”

With a wordless cry, she slammed her hand on the table in frustration.

He didn’t flinch, even as one of the glasses shattered, and a shard flicked past his cheek, drawing a line of blood over his skin.

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DeathWatch II No. 47 – I Forget, Sometimes

This is Issue #47 of DeathWatch, Book II: tentatively called Heart Of Ilona, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find DeathWatch, the first in the series, or start from the beginning of Book II!

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Jet woke into the memory of lips against his collar bone. He glanced down and watched Kieron’s hand slide over his skin, down over his stomach, his hips. Gentle fingers toyed at the waistband of his shorts, growing slowly more daring.

Kieron shifted, lifting himself up on one forearm so he could kiss Jet’s skin more ardently, following the line of his collarbone to his sternum. He glanced up at Jet through a too-long, messy fringe, and grinned breathlessly. His hand slid lower, and he bowed his head to kiss Jet’s chest again.

Jet began to tense, his breath growing shallow, growing faster, and he reached down to brush Kieron’s hair from his eyes. “You need a haircut,” he said absently.

Kieron paused, his breath warm against Jet’s skin. He glanced up, meeting Jet’s eyes, and said, “Focus, Harrington. Where is my hand?” And with that, he dragged his hand purposefully against the fabric, letting it slide against Jet’s skin. “What am I doing right now? You want to talk about my haircut?”

Jet’s breath caught. His eyes widened, but then he laughed aloud, blushing, and said, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I just — I like to see your eyes.”

It was Kieron’s turn to blush; he reached a hand up and raked his hair back from his face, then reached to touch Jet’s cheek. Sky blue eyes watched Jet with familiar adoration, a look Jet had never realized for what it was, but then took for granted he’d never lose. Kieron leaned in and kissed Jet soundly, pressed himself close, laid against his best friend hip to hip, eager for the warmth between them. He then held himself up on his forearm again, looking down at Jet, saying quietly, “Is this better?”

The electric feel of pressure against his hips, of seeing Kieron so close, ran like a tangle of blue fire up Jet’s spine and crackled like warm lightning, flooding his senses. Jet opened his mouth to speak, to say the words that should have come so easily–

I love you

Why did I never tell you?

Why, Key?

–but before he could say anything, Kieron bowed his head and pressed his mouth to Jet’s.

“Mmnph,” was Jet’s answer, as Kieron’s hand returned, and shifted lower. Jet broke the kiss to take a ragged breath, but his love bit down against his lip hard enough that it hurt. Enough that he tasted blood. He pulled back, panting, frowning, shifting — and was suddenly face to face with Immanis.

Salve iterum, amor meus,” Immanis whispered.

“That hurt,” Jet whispered, laughing, somehow forgetting Kieron in an instant. “You–”

Immanis’s leaned in to kiss Jet again, and all Jet could taste was blood and aetheris; it flooded his mouth. He tried to breathe, but the taste of copper and lightning drowned him. As the bottom dropped out of his dream, he rushed down, falling beneath the surface of a storm of redblack and silverblue. He thought of Kieron’s face, when he stood up to Hoyt.

The body fights.

It fights for air.

It fights to live.

His body did; he lashed out, kicking, flailing, and came awake in his bed, bathed in sunlight, his gaze focusing on the sleeping face of Secta. Though he’d tried desperately to save himself in his dream, he had not moved in his sleep — his famulo remained undisturbed. Jet watched the younger man for awhile, watched him simply lay there, Secta’s expression peaceful, serene.

His heart thundered in his chest as he watched Secta, and wondered what it was his famulo dreamed of, wondered if it was fair or wretched of him to find comfort in the arms of his servant, with his first love lost and his second so recently dead.

“I’m so sorry,” Jet whispered, leaning to kiss Secta’s forehead. “Paenitent mei, Sectamea.”

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“What are you doing out here, caro?” Lucida wondered, taking Jet by the hands and kissing his cheek. “I am more than pleased to see you, but I had thought you were… Busy?” She smiled up at him with a knowing expression.

Jet blushed, looking away.

“Jet,” Lucida said, reaching up to cup his cheeks. She turned his face to hers, made him look at the dark of her eyes. “My Black Stone, my caro, look at me,” she purred. “Why are you always so troubled? Why is your heart so heavy?”

“It’s just that–”

Before Jet could finish, a runner burst into the room, gasping. “Guardian! Exosus Aecus is dead!”

Lucida looked to Jet with shock, then back to the runner. “How?” she wondered. “An attack?”

“He was discovered locked inside his office,” the man gasped. “There is.. evidence he had… He had taken his own life, your Majesty.”

Jet nodded, gesturing for the runner to go find respite. He turned, looking to Lucida, who looked shaken. “Meabella?” he wondered, pulling her into his arms, cradling her close. “Is this fear on your face?”

“Not fear, no. Surprise, my black stone,” Lucida said, frowning slightly. “Immanis had Exosus to dinner more than once; he was powerful, but despised. I do not believe for a moment that he would have killed himself.”

“His wife. Should we pay our respects to the family so quickly? Offer our sympathies?” Jet asked. He lamented, only for a single sliver of a moment, not having Gemma here to offer alternate suggestions. She was brilliant, regardless of how manipulative and unscrupulous she had been.

Lucida seemed to be thinking the same thing; her expression grew shrouded with worry. She pursed her lips and said, “Yes. We will send ahead a messenger announcing our desire to offer support and sympathy. He will bring back a time the family will receive us.”

“This is crap timing,” Jet said bluntly, chewing on his lower lip.

Brows shot up. Lucida looked up at Jet, and laughed aloud, saying, “I forget, sometimes, that you were born of the Westlanders.”

Jet hid the ache he felt, smiling almost ruefully as he said, “Sometimes, so do I.”

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voice

His voice
evokes desire — a desire to listen, and to be, to consume, to assume, to pull
the voice
into myself, to devour
the voice
in an effort to speak, to howl, to sing, to seduce with
that voice
in return. I could listen to
that voice
over and over and over again, as though the rest of the world might fade into nothing, and
his voice
might be the only thing remaining. I want
his voice.
I want to hear
his voice.
I want to have
his voice.
I want to be
his voice.
The upswell of emotion causes a frisson not everyone can feel; I feel sorry for those who don’t understand.

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