Birthed by a monster,
bitten by a wolf,
raised by a banshee,
suckled on venom,
heart as dark
as the blackest of tarpits,
and still she is soft enough
to sleep with the light on,
like us, afraid
of things worse than she.
To Sleep With The Light On
DeathWatch No. 6 – Final Decision
This is Issue #6 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. If you haven’t read any of the earlier pieces, click the Serials link and start at ‘A Beginning’, then go forward. Don’t worry; I’ll wait here.
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“Mother?” Jet began, looking startled. “Father?”
Immediately, his mother got up, and moved to take his hands, and pull him into her warm, soft embrace. Her cheek on his was cool, and she smelled precisely of the perfume he’d always remembered. “My boy,” she breathed. “You look terrible; they’ve starved you,” she whispered, kissing his forehead. “Nasty, brutish academy,” she said, pulling back to brush his hair back from his face. “I’ve half a mind to–”
“Kazue,” Jet’s father sighed. “Not right now.”
Across the room, in the other few chairs, the Redwells sat in stony silence, Hoyt with his arms crossed over his chest, Ms. Redwell glaring hate at a spot on the carpet, and Mr. Redwell busying himself with the contents of his briefcase.
When Olivier opened the door to his inner chamber, he glanced over all three families, his lips pursed to a thin line. Everyone began to file in past him, and found places to sit in the extra chairs, save for Hoyt, who stood mostly upright, shoulders level, head up, as though readying himself for inspection. Olivier stopped Jet just before he walked in, and leaned in close. “Your discipline has been removed from your records so as not to affect your academic career. If you wish it to remain that way, you will not discuss it. Should you bring it up, the nature of your relationship with Mr. Brody will be investigated. Are we clear?”
Jet flushed, furious, but gritted his teeth and nodded.
Olivier nodded once, then swept in to the office, and offered tea to the grouping, welcoming them. “Ladies, Gentlemen, I want to thank you all for–”
“Let’s dispense with the pleasantries,” Mrs. Redwell snapped. “We’re quite busy, and I’m sure everyone has something to get back to.”
“Yes, yes, of course,” Olivier said, clearing his throat. “Dirty business, this, when children fight,” he began. “It–”
“Who started it, man?” Mr. Redwell hissed. “That’s all anyone is asking for.”
“I see.” Olivier looked exasperated, exhausted, and as though he’d rather curl up and die. “Redwell, stand up and explain what happened.”
Hoyt stood then, and glared death down at Jet, and said, “Brody… insulted me. So I stopped him.” Mr. Redwell looked unsurprised, as well as uncaring, while Mrs. Redwell looked disgusted at the first statement, and then proud at the second.
“And how did you stop him?” Olivier pushed.
“Warned him lots,” Hoyt said, shrugging. “Then we popped eachother coupla times. Don’t remember. Everyone started rushin in, n’ then I got sent here.”
“I see. Harrington?”
Jet cleared his throat, and looked down at his hands, then looked over at his parents. His father wore an expression demanding answers, while his mother looked only loving. He then dared to look over to Kieron’s parents, who looked everything from tired to infuriated, to… ashamed?
“Hoyt’s accout is mostly true,” Jet said quietly. “Kieron …insulted Brody, and Brody hit him. But it wasn’t once or twice. I didn’t see it all, but I know after the first punch, Kieron went down, and then Hoyt kept hitting him. Punched him over and over. I couldn’t stop him. Three or four older students tried, prefects tried — eventually, he was hauled away, still trying to hit and kick Kieron. Somewhere in there, he punched me in the face.”
“And you’re sure it wasn’t your friend Brody who accidentally struck you, while you were trying to insinuate yourself into the altercation?” Redwell Senior sneered.
“I’m sure, sir,” Jet answered calmly. “Hoyt’s a big guy. He knocked Kieron out, first punch. Kieron never hit back. To be fair, I don’t know as Hoyt was trying to hit me.”
“Why should we believe any of this?” Mr. Redwell glowered.
“Several eye-witnesses, all of whom have corroborated Harrington’s story, to the letter. As you can see, Mr. Redwell, Mr. Harrington required stitches from your son’s attack, and he wasn’t even the intended target,” Olivier sighed. “And this is not the first time such an incident has occurred. Hoyt Redwell Junior has received demerits a number of times for his physical violence upon Kieron.”
Jet looked positively bewildered at that last statement — he was almost always with Kieron. When else had Hoyt hurt him? He tried not to clench his hands into fists, gritting his teeth, staring daggers at the other student, only coming out of his own thoughts when the Redwells began to express outrage.
“I’m sorry,” Olivier was saying, lifting his hands in mild disapproval at their outbursts. “It’s out of my hands. The board has very strict policies regarding this sort of thing.”
“This sort of thing?” Hoyt Redwell Senior snarled, all but coming around the desk and trying to tower over the Headmaster. “Thing? My son was insulted, defended himself, and–”
“Mister Redwell,” Olivier said, standing tall, leaning in over Redwell easily. “Your son’s actions put two students and a prefect in the infirmary. One of the students had to be released to the care of a hospice house. Over the last two days, the investigation has… revealed the truth of the matter, and these families will all be pressing charges. I am sorry, but the decision is made. As of this moment, Hoyt’s expulsion is final.”
“You’ll be hearing from my lawyer,” Redwell Senior snapped, and then ordered his wife and son from the room. They all began to stalk out, walking past Jet, who remain standing, as he was bid. As Hoyt Junior went by, he leaned in, hissing, “You and Brody? You’re fucking dead.”
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DeathWatch No. 5 – Two Days For Reflection
This is Issue #5 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to get back to the beginning of DeathWatch, and catch up, if you think you’ve missed any.
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By the time Jet got to the infirmary, out of breath and wild-eyed, Kieron’s bed was empty. He ran back to the desk, gripping the top of it, his hands whiteknuckled. “Where,” he panted. “Where’s Key?”
Not amused to be interrupted by dramatics, the assistant behind the desk said, “Brody’s parents picked him up. He’s gone.”
“No, he can’t be gone!” Jet shouted. “He’s not sick!”
The man behind the desk pointed to the door, saying, “This area is for those recuperating from injury or illness. You are neither. Please leave.”
“I have to see him!” Jet said, pounding his fists on the desk — it startled the assistant, but more importantly, it infuriated the man walking back in to the infirmary — the Headmaster.
Jet’s eyes were huge as he took in the forbidding figure, and he finally sagged, as if realizing the futility.
“Mr. Harrington. My office,” the headmaster snapped. After a long, anguished moment in which Jet calculated how hard it would be to run past the headmaster and get down to the main entrance, Jet nodded, slumping off past the assistant, and down the hall.
* * *
The waiting room outside Headmaster’s Olivier’s office was plush, but the chairs were uncomfortable. No one sitting there could sit still, but under the cold eyes of Olivier’s assistant, no one could squirm for long, either. Jet waited, alternately wringing and sitting on his hands, his eyes wandering over the same six pictures on the walls, the three paintings of old battle sites, two stormy seascapes, and a set of distant mountains. Unable to pace or fidget, he finally began to doze from the exhaustion that comes after all adrenaline has been spent.
“Harrington!” Olivier’s voice was a knife. “Inside. Now.” He brushed by the boy and slipped into his office, leaving the door open for him. “Shut it behind you,” he commanded, and rounded his desk.
Jet followed in, as he was bid, and shut the door, then turned around and tried to find a reasonable place to be. He’d never had cause to be summoned to the Headmaster’s office before.
He finally stood near to the seat in front of the desk; with the door shut, the fire roaring, and the shades shut against the snowy night, the room had an odd warmth to it, one that belied its purpose as Jet imagined it: a place of punishment. He waited, looking down at his feet, knowing he shouldn’t move.
“Harrington,” Olivier said, and Jet looked up, his eyes widening. There were traces of sympathy in the sound of the man’s voice, but his eyes were anything but friendly. “I want you to take the next two days for reflection.”
“Sir?” Jet was stunned. What was this?
“Hear me out. The next two days, all of tomorrow, you are formally released from all structured chapel services, classes, duties, and assigned responsibilities,” Harrington said. “You will spend it in contemplation.”
“Yes, sir,” Jet said, not daring to smile. He would have to catch up on notes, figure out how to get the readings and assignments, but this was far, far less a punishment than he’d imagined.
Just then, the doors opened, and two prefects entered.
“Ah, yes. Wallace and Stevens. Please escort Harrington to a contemplation room,” Olivier said, and the way his mouth twisted made Jet believe the man was making a joke of some kind, only the young man couldn’t quite make it out. He got up, and looked to the prefects who nodded, and guided Jet back out of the room.
They walked him to the main hall, but instead of going to the dorms, Jet was led past the science labs and into an unused section of the school below the shooting ranges. At this time of the night, no one was in them; the halls were silent, save for the clacking boots of the three headed through the halls. After one last turn, Wallace opened a door and Stevens gestured for Jet to go in first.
He did so, but stopped not far in; there were no lights in that room, and he didn’t want to bump into anything. “Wait, I don’t–” he began, but then he felt the air rush out of him as Wallace’s booted foot made contact with his chest. He fell back, and skidded over the not-quite-smoothed concrete floor, the rough of it tearing his uniform pants and abrading his palms.
Stevens leaned over him, snarling, “Stay down, Harrington.”
Jet did, the realization coming to him. This wasn’t two days of contemplation. This wasn’t reflection. This was solitary. Two days of this room, all alone. “Wait. WAIT! No please!” The panic hit him as the door was pulled shut, and he threw himself at it, as a caught moth does to the jar in which it is prisoner, battering himself against the door and the wall, screaming until he made himself hoarse. “Please! No! Open the door — let me out! LET ME OUT!”
Two days.
There was no light; the room was small, almost two full paces deep, only a pace and a half wide. Just enough room to lie down, which Jet did. Then he curled up into a ball near the door, fingers scrabbling at the seam of it, until he could feel the nails gone torn and bloody.
Tears on his face dried.
He had no concept of time. What felt like hours and hours could have been only moments.
All he knew was that somewhere in the middle of it, he grew desperately thirsty, cavernously hungry, and had to piss like a racehorse. He waited, and waited, imagining they would not leave him here without food or water, but no one came. No one came for what had to have been hours and hours. He inched around the tiny room, wondering if it had merely been a closet, repurposed, or if he’d been left a pot, or a drain hole. There was nothing, so when he could finally hold it no more, he simply let it go against the back corner, hoping it wouldn’t simply spread everywhere.
The smell of it, fear and ammonia, filled the tiny room, and made him sick to his stomach.
The relief to his bladder was immense, however, and he fell into an exhausted sleep shortly after.
When he woke, disoriented, it took him a moment to realize where he was, and when he gingerly put his hands out to help himself up, they splashed in cold urine, and it stung the hell out of his scraped fingernails. Not for the first time since the beginning of the first night in solitary, Jet cried, and carefully tried wiping his hands off on the calves of his uniform pants.
When the door finally pulled open, he tumbled into the hallway, at the feet of the Wallace and Stevens. Everything outside of that room was blindingly bright, and Jet put his hands over his eyes, crying out. The two prefects hauled him to his feet, despite his protests, and dragged him back toward the main part of the school.
He was shoved into the shared baths, and handed a bag of fresh clothing, and told, “You’ve got thirty minutes to collect yourself. Then you’ll report back to the Headmaster’s office.” Jet nodded that he understood, and when he went to take off his shirt, with shaking hands, as soon as his arms and face were caught up in the under shirt, each of the prefects caught him in the stomach with a closed fist punch. He went down with a whooping choking sound, curling up, struggling to get the fabric away from his face, even as he tried to keep his kidneys protected.
He couldn’t see it, but the door opened, and shut — he went deathly still. Once he thought he was alone, he sat up and tore the shirt away from his head, gasping, fresh tears in his eyes. He gingerly got up and removed his boots and the rest of his clothes, turning on one of the showers. His eyes were finally getting used to the light, and the hot water and even the caustic soap were a relief.
Thirty minutes later, he was dressed, and approaching the headmaster’s office, his hands jammed in his pockets, his head down. It was a horror; he would have nightmares, but it was over now, right? He trudged along the hall, feeling exhausted, but strangely relieved. He had been punished, and now it was over.
It wasn’t until he entered the waiting area that he realized he was wrong — his punishment was far from over. Not only was Hoyt Redwell there, waiting for him, but so were Hoyt’s parents, as well as his own — and Kieron’s.
* * *
I Got Your Back
Back to back, Eli and I looked around in the deepening dark. I could see my breath.
“We’re gonna have to run for it,” Eli said, panting.
“You first. I got your back,” I told him.
“With what?” Eli laughed.
“Fuck it, let’s just go together,” I said.
“On three?” he offered.
In the distance, there was a gunshot.
“Sure. THREE!” I shouted, and we grabbed for one another’s hand. Running like hell, we jumped over potholes, snowbanks, public newsboxes, planters, curbstones, old piles of brush. While we were running for our lives I didn’t think of Cole laying in the parking lot, already cold, already done bleeding.
When we came around the last turn, I felt a stab in my side — a stitch that felt like a meathook buried in my flesh. I let go of Eli’s hand as I stumbled, but he caught me and pulled me up.
“C’mon,” he rasped. “Don’t fuckin fall down yet, nancy-boy,” he teased.
“M’gonna tell Addie you’re cruel,” I panted, struggling to keep up. Up ahead of us, the vans were idling, ready to go. Thuy was hanging out the driver’s side door of the middle one, screaming for us to hurry up — the third van wasn’t on, or idling. The doors were open, and it was empty.
As we neared, I could see Lydia on the pavement, a bullethole through her left eye. The meat of her kept twitching, while something wispy and black rose and dissipated from her lips.
“Let’s go!” Thuy howled. “Jesus fuck, they got everyone!”
“Addie?” Eli said, stopping dead in his tracks, his eyes huge.
“I’m here!” she called from the first van, in the driver’s seat, looking exhausted, but determined. “Don’t stop running. C’mon!”
Eli hauled me to the van with Addie and shoved me inside, getting in and pulling the door shut. The engines revved, and we peeled away, laying rubber and putting as much distance between us and Nothington as possible.
When we pulled away, this time, having lost all but the last four of us, I expected Eli to tell me ‘I told you so.’
I certainly wouldn’t have blamed him.
Any and all attempts
Any and all attempts
to subvert the patriarchy
will result in not a quick death
but a slow torture
by injection.
You will have your self worth replaced
by airbrushed pictures of perfection
and you will have your self love replaced
by gluten free
sugar free
fat free
vegan
free range
organic
paleo
“Chocklet”
and you will have your self confidence replaced
by a younger model
with fewer miles
and more features.
Have a nice day!