Tag Archives: depression
Toska/Saudade
In another language, another lifetime, in another place, if I were someone else and not me I would be able to find the words that mean homesick for an idea. Homesick for the remembrance of something lost. I would be … Continue reading
On The Occasion Of Your Anniversary
Peppermint on my tongue to wash away the taste of bourbon and cheap hotel rooms. In that place where sand touches water, the liminal space of borders, where one thing becomes another, I constantly find myself wanting to correct my … Continue reading
Finding Out
Thunderheart and sickswimbobblehead the spinspindizzy of whoopbreathchoke and stumbletripstumbletrip until crashsmack and grimaceblush or gritgrin or flinchsmile and achewalk, groansighslump, yearnreachwish — bowkneelplant, bowretchsob, holdtight holdfast holdon givein giveup giveout — wavebreak of tidalrush Brokenheart, griefstruck. Stricken. Rememberlove. Darlinglove. Wonderjoy, … Continue reading
Someday.
Occasionally he sees how the cycle could end. He thinks of all the ways it might work: A gun to his head. A tire iron to hers. He imagines what it would be like to be free: What joy he … Continue reading
Plague Ship
Drowning, struggling. I come up just for enough air to shout for help, but no one can hear me. I never made it above the surface, and what I take in is a long, heaving gasp of cold, of salt. … Continue reading