DeathWatch No. 47 – If He Does Not Survive This

This is Issue #47 of DeathWatch, in which we revisit Jet — you remember Jet, don’t you?

This is part of an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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The darkness lifted.

Jet came to, but it was no better than being in the dark. He could barely breathe, for the pain.

The waking world was a shock, bitter and stinging, that left him clenching his teeth and curling up like a wolf spider on a temple roof — unable to get to a cool tile in time, shriveling up under the hot sun.

Every fibre of Jet’s being was focused into the agony of his hand. Where Immanis had cut them both and mixed their blood, he remained raw and open, and as he lay on the floor unable to otherwise control his body, his hand held a white hot star that illuminated new forms of anguish in his bones. It would have hurt less for the hand to be cut off entirely, he was sure.

He knew because of the tension in Lucida’s face, in her dark eyes and the way her curls were sweatslick against her face that she was worried for him, that he was screaming, knew because of the way that the world shook, he was convulsed, writhing in spasms.

He frothed at the mouth, gagging and choking at his own tongue as his eyes began to roll back into his head; Lucida reached, fast as could be, to grab him and turn him to the side as he suddenly retched, howling.

All of these things he knew, could feel, could not control. His body was betraying him, an act of suffering and anguish so intense, it drove him from all rational thought, leaving him only with the memory of a moment–

–Kieron’s eyes, watching him, and the feel of Kieron’s lips against his–

–and then that, too, it tore away.

Eventually, the light of the world dissolved again, and there was silence, unconsciousness. It was not bliss; somewhere behind his eyes, the world hummed and tasted like aetheris that he could not swallow. It filled him and flooded him and his limbs danced and contorted.

* * *

Flashes of fire and blood and violence filled his dreams; Jet drowned in a sea of red, and was lifted from fire by Immanis and his sister. They tore his skin away and left him steaming. They took out his heart, shoved in a hot coal, pulled away his innards, and replaced his vitals with scorching desert sand, set loose a thousand scarab beetles in his chest, and slipped his skin back on. The beetles ran about beneath his flesh, and as he lay on the marble floor of Lucida’s room, Jet thrashed, eyes wide, jaw snapped open in a permanent scream, or clicked shut hard enough it seemed he would crush his own teeth.

The whole of the palace was abuzz from the sound of Jet’s cries; Immanis came to Lucida’s room, storming in, but when he saw the young man on the floor, he wondered of her, “What has happened?”

Shaking, Lucida answered, “If I did not know any better, my brother, my love, I would say it is his novo. That his change has come. This is how you screamed, do you not remember?”

“I do,” Immanis said, leaning down and lifting up Jet’s hand. As he watched, the wound there sealed up, leaving a weal of red that looked like a star. “And I remember yours. You bled and shrieked.” He put Jet’s hand over his own heart and whispered, “I will hate myself, if he fails this change. I did not mean to harm him, only to join him to our house. I wanted him in our family.”

She put Jet’s head in her lap, with his body turned to the side, and let him convulse as she stroked his hair back from his face. “If he does not survive this, I may hate you for it, as well,” she whispered. “He was already family, brother. What have you done?”

Jet’s body shook in her arms, and low groans of pain escaped his lips when he was not outright shrieking, his throat gone raw from the sheer strain of it.

* * *

Hours passed.

Days.

Jet’s body burned with a fever unlike any the palace physicians have seen. They put him in cool baths, gave him herbs, but could do little besides wait it out. In his delirium, he occasionally screamed for his mother, and wept as he frothed and shook. He was not lucid, did not seem to see the prince and princess of Ilona in the room with him, their hands at his brow, their hearts skipping beats when he would go slack, and his breath would stop.

Now and then, either Lucida or Immanis would put their ear to his chest, or their fingers to his throat, listening for his heartbeat, seeking the pulse that would promise life.

First, it was screaming and seizures.

Then fever, in addition.

Then came the blood.

The bed upon which he lay became soaked in it as he sweat it from his body, as his system voided itself of the lifegiving stuff in every fashion possible.

Lucida, who had laid with him for days, who had held him, woke to believe his fever had finally broken, that he was covered in sweat, but in the dim light, she saw that it was blood — so much so that she wailed in fear and grief.

When Immanis came in, hearing her distress, they each lay beside Jet, and held him between their bodies, skin to skin.

Jet shook, the heat of his own fever making him tremble. Blood ran from his eyes, his ears and nose and mouth, caked in his hair, puddled beneath his hips, against his thighs. The room smelled of copper and salt and aetheris.

Lucy woke in the night to hear him whispering, and she watched his face in the moonlight, his features blood-painted, his teeth red, his lashes red. His eyes were opened and weeping bloody tears, staring into nothing, seeing something she could not.

Immanis woke as well, and sat up, looking down over them, whispering, “What’s he saying?” Lucida listened, leaning close, her ear nearly to Jet’s lips, holding her breath. She glanced up to her brother in the darkness, and her voice was a hushed whisper of worry.

“It sounds like… He’s looking for a key.”

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DeathWatch No. 46 – I love you, Jules

This is Issue #46 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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“How long do you suppose until the next time you come jumping aboard my ship?” Jules wondered, kissing Nathan. Her wild hair blew in long curls in the damp wind; she kept tossing it back out of her face, her lips curved in a smirk as though acknowledging its impudence.

Abe, who was talking to Sha, paused the middle of his sentence to say “–Is not your ship, Yana–” with the humored amusement of someone who’s said the same thing a thousand thousand times, and then continued on talking with the other captain.

Jules rolled her eyes, grinning up at Nathan. “Fine,” she mock-huffed, shaking her head. “How long do you suppose until the next time you come jumping aboard the ship I let Abe keep?” she asked.

“Not too long,” Nathan said casually, as though this were the easiest thing in the world — the whole of it was betrayed by the way he pressed to her, his arms around her, his eyes never leaving her. “I’ve got a deal with some of the belly boys. They’ll throw shit out of the hold when no one’s looking, so we run out of supplies soon and have to find you. Don’t go far, okay?” He stroked her cheek, sliding his fingertips over the pink round of her smile, smiling right back.

“I never go far,” Jules said. “You’re the adventurous one, remember?”

Kieron felt a hand on his shoulder, and turned to see Sha, who had come over with Abramov. She squeezed his shoulder briefly, and leaned to whisper, “I know it’s hard, but don’t stare too long; you’ll go blind from the too-fucking-adorable.” Kieron blushed, shaking his head, and moved to pick up the things he was going to bring back aboard the TS Jacob.

Crew members from the Maxima were finally coming back, which meant it was time for the last of those from the TS Jacob to head home — fast friends had been made over the past four days, and old friendships were renewed. Even if it was only a few months until the next resupply, there was no guarantee it would be the Maxima with which they rendezvoused.

Nathan was the last man left as the technics on either side began to dismantle the bridge connecting the ships. Kieron stood at the rail with Sha aboard the TS Jacob, watching he and Jules say their goodbyes, and he wondered, “How do they do it?”

Sha watched for a little while, but then turned away with a fond smile as Nathan bowed his head and kissed Jules on the nose. “Frankly, I’m surprised every time he comes back aboard,” she says. “Pleased, but surprised.”

“If I could see–” Kieron cleared his throat, feeling his eyes sting. It was hard to get the words out; he couldn’t even say Jet’s name aloud. He could taste it on his tongue, but he couldn’t speak it. “If I could see him again? I wouldn’t. I love it here, Captain, I really do. But I’d leave in a heartbeat if he wasn’t staying with me.”

Sha nodded, understanding.

Horns sounded, signifying the last of the rope bridge being dismantled; one lone rope looped through Nathan’s rigging harness, and it grew taut as the ships began to slip away from one another. Hands clutched; the quartermaster of the TS Jacob and the quartermaster of the Maxima held to one another for a moment longer, until the rigging pulled him up and away. For a moment, he lifted her from the deck, taking her with him. He kissed her mouth in one long, last goodbye until he gently set her back down, boots on the deck, her upturned face shining with tears that had fallen from both their eyes.

The ships separated more swiftly, then, and the Maxima disappeared into the clouds, pulling away.

Nathan climbed up the side of the ship as Kieron helped to haul him in. When he got to the rails, he stared off into the clouds. “I love you, Jules!” he called down.

From the white emptiness came the reply, “I love you, Nathan!”

The ships were moving now, truly, well and away, and still he called. “I love you, Jules!”

She answered back, shouting to be heard over the noise of the engines and the wind, and her voice seemed far. “I love you, Nathan!”

“I love you,” Jules!” Nathan cried.

“–ve you, Nath–” The sound of Jules’s voice faded into the hum of the wind. Kieron listened for it, but not as hard as Nathan did, gripping the rail and leaning forward.

“I love you, Jules!” he shouted back, almost breathless, willing her to hear.

Nathan leaned further forward, his nails all but digging in to the rail. There was agony on his face as he strained to hear. Finally, as though he heard, when Kieron had simply assumed they were too far away, he called again.

“JULES!” Nathan yelled, and the cords in his neck stood out; . “JULES, I LOVE YOU! JULES!” His voice broke from the rough cry, and he leaned over so far he swayed against the wind. “JULES!”

Kieron reached for him, but it was Sha that put a hand to Nathan’s shoulder. He felt his own heart break to watch Nathan close his eyes and bow his head.

“She knows,” Sha promised.

Nathan slid back from being on his tiptoes, to let the heels of his boots touch the deck, and his shoulders slumped, as though in defeat. He wiped the tears from his eyes and turned away from the railing at last, not looking at anyone as he walked toward his quarters.

Sha followed him, one hand at his shoulder, the two of them in matched step. She said nothing, and neither did he.

Kieron watched everyone go back about their ship duties; he did not try to follow Nathan or Sha, but instead ended up going for his own bunk. For once, he hadn’t drawn any surprise duties, but was going to be able to crawl beneath his blankets and strive for sleep.

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So Much Fear

What am I
besides so much air
over a too-dry reed?
What am I
besides so much glitter
to be blown in the wind?
What am I
besides so much fear?
What am I?

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Return Me To Myself

How much of myself
do you want me to give up
so I can be your everything?
How much of my skin
would you like me to peel away,
and how much blood
would you like me to trail,
and must I do it artfully?
Will you critique
my anemia and my tremors?
And in the end,
will you collect me
when I am nothing but husk
and return me to myself?

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DeathWatch No. 45 – How Are The Two Of You Married?

This is Issue #45 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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“What are you all doing on ship? Pilot tells me we can’t go because have barnacles,” came a gruff, thickly-Kriegic voice.

“Pirates!” yelled Jules. “I told Andrej t’tell you they were pirates!”

“Close lips, Yana–”

Jules interrupted the Krieg. “–don’t call me that you mule-brained–”

“–don’t shouting every time you talking–” The Krieg kept talking.

But so did Jules. “–kack-mouthed–”

Both of them, over one another.”–mouthy–”

“–CANICULA.”

The both of them ended on that last word, squared off against one another, but in the last moment, as the Captain of the Maxima showed up from across the deck, stalking toward Jules, Nathan stepped in front of her, lifting his chin, and crossing his arms in front of his chest.

His expression was anything but amused; he looked like he might haul off and crack the Captain a good one upside his jaw.

Maxima’s Captain was massive, himself. A solid six and a half feet tall, perhaps an even three feet wide, broad shouldered and bald and bearded, with a tallcoat that had to have been made from the corpses of three other ones, at least.

Kieron froze, his eyes wide. He tensed, ready to run for Nate’s side, feeling his heart pound in his throat.

And then Maxima’s Captain laughed aloud and swept Nathan off his feet in a hug. “Ah, is favorite airman’s wife!” he said, setting Nathan down and ruffling his hair. “Have not seen you in too long!”

She’s the wife,” Nathan playfully sulked.

“We’ve been pulling northern duty,” Sha said, embracing the Captain.

Kieron stood still, looking shocked, until Nathan turned around and grabbed hold of his hand, pulling him up and pushing him in front of the new Captain.

“Brody, this is Abramov, Captain of the Maxima,” Nathan said. “One of my oldest friends, certainly one of the best. Abe, this is our newest Captain’s recruit.”

Kieron tried not to flinch back as Abramov reached out a hand that looked as large as a halfkeg. He put out his own hand, and when Abramov’s grip swallowed it, Kieron felt himself hauled forward into a bear hug. “Recruits — they are smaller every year. This one looks like student!”

“Behave, Abe,” Jules said. “This is Delia Brody’s boy. You remember her, yeah?”

“Ah, beautiful Delia,” Abe said, his eyes lighting up. “You know she was flying fighter plane trials? Is how meeting your father. I hear she is not well. You tell her Poruchik Abramov says expecting visit on Borderlands. Has been too long.”

“My mother what?” Kieron gasped, his jaw dropping. He stood on the deck, swaying, completely baffled at this sudden announcement.

“Finest pilot in Centralis ranks,” Abe said, nodding. “Now — so much catching up, but little time. We four must talk, while you assist in supplying ship, meeting other soldiers, because this is not what you do forever, yes? You will return home after silly war-games, yes? Live through first, last, and only tour of duty. Go home. Make babies, give grandchildren to your mother, yes?”

Kieron laughed, smiling at Abe, and said, “I’ll think about it, Captain. Thank you.”

“Is serious, Kieron Brody. Tell mother hello for Abe, yes?” the giant said, patting Kieron on the back.

“I will, Captain. I will.”

* * *

The clouds remained, thick and damp, while the ships clung together. Kieron made a circuit of the Maxima, learning it physically, discovering all the modifications. In his head he took stock of the food rations, fresh to dried, counted up the aether charges, the shots for the fire cannon, and other weapons. He noticed odd kegs tapped with strange piping he’d never read about in classes or his father’s design books, and asked a technic, “What’s this?”

The technic, busy doing calculations out on paper, said “Aetheris.”

“What’s it for?” Kieron wondered, putting his hand on a jar. Briefly, he felt it hum and throb. It reminded him of the engines themselves.

“Burning,” the technic said, glancing at Kieron, his lips pursed.

“I see,” Kieron said, though he didn’t — he supposed it was an alternate version of fuel for the various lamps and stoves on board, considering one didn’t keep engine fuel anywhere but back with the engines, and resolved he’d look it up later — “Thanks!” He wandered off again, not liking the way the technic looked at him, and resolved to get himself nearly lost on board the Maxima, to find all the modifications that had been made to the ship.

* * *

“How’s it been?” Jules wondered, sprawled on her bed, grinning up at Sha. “Haven’t seen you in forever. What was it, Port of Light, two years ago?”

“It was!” Sha laughed, and they clinked glasses, drank, and poured more. “That was a fun time. I think I was hung over for days afterward, though.” Her dark eyes watched the chess board between them; they played again and again, drinking and talking. Mostly drinking and playing, easy to find it easy to be silent, for some of it. “This group of recruits is turning out well. We’ve managed to get them working faster than any other crew. I might have to get you to teach them to wakeboard,” she laughed. She tapped her lips with a captured pawn as she stared down at the board. She finally made her move, and the concentration on her face blossomed into satisfaction.

“How long will you stay this time?” Jules wondered, barely watching as she moved a piece, her eyes mostly on Sha.

“Few days at most. You could always come with us?” Sha offered, the satisfaction on her face turning to pure bewilderment at the move.

“And what, give up my ship?” Jules laughed.

* * *

“How much longer do you think Jules is going to let you run the Maxima?” Nate teased Abramov, sucking on a cherry pipe and making lazy smoke rings.

“Is funny how you try joking,” Abramov said dryly, rolling his eyes. “I see you are Quartermaster, still? You have no ship of your own? Holding still, Natan.” The brushes looked minuscule, ridiculous in Abe’s fingers, and yet he wielded them with deft care, putting shadow and light to canvas.

Nate shifted, briefly, to get a little more comfortable. “I’m too valuable to waste as a captain,” Nate said, smirking. “I’m needed to wrangle the crew — though maybe it would be easier if I ran the ship. How’s it going?” he wondered, craning his neck as though he could see around the painting. “Are you getting my good side?”

“Is no easier, even if you are captain,” Abramov chuckled. “Patience. Is taking time. Holding still.”

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Engines off, fins tucked, sails dropped, ballonets purged, the ships stayed nestled to one another like some kind of whale and her calf, while supplies went from the Maxima’s holds up to Jacob’s. Airmen were delighted to see one another, to go from ship to ship, to feel less closed in, to see new things. The mountain’s clouds were in no danger of clearing; staying there would be easy and safe — at least for the moment.

* * *

Anyone listening in would be able to catch the story, almost all at once, considering how everyone talked over one another.

“…and then they closed the fin!”

“You weren’t supposed to be on it, still!”

“Wait, so how are you not dead?”

“I have no fucking clue, but that’s not even the best part.”

“You don’t have to–”

“The best part was when Nate–”

“–really, it was nothing–”

“No, I want to hear.”

“Story is good. Keep to be telling us.”

“–flew off the side of the ship–”

“–wasn’t that big of a–”

“–wasn’t wearing a rigging harness–”

“That is Natan. Never having protection.”

“Oi!”

“–looked like something out of an adventure story–”

“–Jules, you gotta understand I was just trying to help–”

“You suicidal maniac!”

“–dove down and caught me, with one hand!”

“It was fairly amazing, really.”

“You pulled your shoulder out of socket, didn’t you?”

“–didn’t hurt that bad–”

“Bullshit. You fainted.”

“He fainted?!”

“He saved my life!”

“And fainted!”

“…with one hand!”

* * *

“Okay, I still don’t understand it,” Kieron said, as he, Nate, Abe, Sha, and Jules sat about, playing a game of cards. “How are the two of you married?”

“What you’re asking,” Jules said, smirking, “Is more like ‘what’s the point of being married if you’re not doing it like my mum and da did?’ — am I right?”

Kieron paused, picking up a glass and knocking back a healthy swallow of something Nate had delightedly called ‘Clear and lovely’ and then coughed for a moment, redfaced. “Sorry, sorry,” he laughed. “Yeah, I guess that’s exactly what I’m asking. You don’t live together or work together. You barely see one another, and I know for a fact now that you both have other lovers, thank you, the lot of you, for constantly giving me far more information than I might ever need,” he said, rolling his eyes.

“He’s looking at you, Abe,” Nate smirked.

Kieron coughed then, but it sounded an awful lot like the word Kriegsman.

Jules howled with laughter and poured them all more of the drink, then dealt out another hand of cards. “He’s m’best friend,” she said, looking over at Nate, who was glassy-eyed and smiling in a way that made Kieron’s heart ache. “Just because I don’t see him often enough doesn’t stop that. It’s hard, yeah, but this life we’re leading — it isn’t forever. We put away money so we can retire from active duty before we’re too old to enjoy it, and then we can travel. See the world from the air on our own schedule,” she said. “And in the mean time, the other lovers we have don’t take anything away from what we have with one another. We come first, and our lovers know it, and that’s it.”

“Amen to that,” Sha said, lifting up her mug and laughing. “Means I don’t have to clean up after his personal messes. I can have the fun without the heartbreak.”

“Wait, I have personal messes?” Nate said, looking offended.

That time, everyone else at the table coughed, and it sounded an awful lot like the word ‘Kriegsman’.

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