DeathWatch No. 90 – Climb Me

This is Issue #90 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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The ghost ship sailed above a roiling black sea, trailing a glittering mist of silverblue. Frost bled from its sails and chains, but there was no hum of life to its engine. Dark and darker, it slipped along on the high jetstream, while everyone inside held their breath.

As the sun dipped below the Ridge, the men and women who dared to be ‘gators hung from their posts and stared back at what the Ilonans called the Luminora — the edge of light — and watched the way the sun burned up the sky. Above the clouds, the world was painted in blood and gold, and there was radio silence as each member of the Jacob did their task, caught either in fear, or in beauty.

The sky went from whitegold to whitepink to bloody orange to crimson and indigo, to twilight and stars. The moon was purely a sickle, huge but mostly hidden, and the known world was dark enough that it was easy to know which way they were headed, even without being able to see the land below.

Most everything was blackness, save for pinpricks of light, a landscape of serenity that belied the bounty of ships below, and their weapons.

“Lightning’s coming,” the ‘gators called.

“That goes down,” Nate said, smirking.

“You know,” said Jules, walking in and rolling her eyes. “You smirking is never a good thing.”

“Don’t you pick on my smirk,” Nate laughed, putting an arm around Jules.

“Ugh, stop with the cute. You two make me want to throw up,” Sha said, rolling her eyes.

Nate snorted, rolling his eyes in return, and quietly asked Jules, “You seen Brody?”

“No, you were goin–”

“Sirens. Didn’t make it down. But he’s not in here.”

“I’ll get ‘im,” Jules said, and leaned up to give Nathan a kiss on the cheek. “Look alive, O’Malley. This teacup’s in for one hell of a ride, yeah?”

Nate laughed and said, “Ain’t it always? Go on with you, then,” and watched as Jules disappeared back out the door.

“The fuel,” Hana said. “How are the tanks?”

“Just below redline, for pressure,” the cadet called back, “But we had to bleed off nearly thirty percent of what we had.”

“Putting us at what?” Nate wondered, turning his attention back to the crises.

“Each tank’s at 25% right now,” the cadet answered.

Nate nodded, and said to Sha, “Plenty of fuel for another two months, and we’re not staying on this side of the ridge that lo–what in hell’s–?” Nate ran for the window and looked down, all but pressing his face to the glass.

Far below and well behind them, the black clouds began to light up, to glow. In flashes and rippling waves, they burst into whitehot brilliance. The buffeting energy made the ship rock and turn.

“–the fuck?” Sha breathed. Everyone in the comms room stared out of the side windows, looking back, watching as massive plumes of light speared through the clouds, following along the trail they’d been on. “Ion cannons? What, are the Ilonans just shooting blind?”

“They’re nowhere near us,” Nate marveled.

“Your plan worked,” Sha said, clapping Hana on the back. “Damn good job, cadet.”

“Don’t thank me yet,” Hana breathed. “If those are ion cannons–”

“Captain! Captain! Permission to shut off the bleed!” the cadet in the fuel room broke in, sounding terrified.

Realization flooded the expressions of those in comms, followed shortly by a burst of fear, and then determination. “Granted!” Sha shouted back. “Get it done, cadet! Djara! Penny! Figure out a way for us to move faster, or we’re all–”

The sound of the explosion was deafening, and the ship itself gave up a long, grinding groan.

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“JULES!”

The redhead turned around to see Kieron staggering back from the head, looking bewildered. His eyes were dark and glassy, and he still looked almost punch-drunk. Every time she saw his wounded face, she was ashamed of Nathan. Every time.

“What the fuck is–”

“We’re flying dark, cadet. Ilonan Domitors are below us, shooting up into the clouds. I’m guessing they managed to hit something,” Jules said, looking grim.

Over Jules’ radio, they both heard the Captain, “I need eyes on the fuel line cadet! He’s not responding.”

“Got it!” Jules shouted back, and grabbed for Kieron’s hand. “Let’s go, cadet.”

They ran from the bunks to the belly as quickly as possible, boots pounding on the boards, busting through doors until they got to one marked ‘Fuel Room.’ The metal wheel was rattling, and the roar behind it was deafening. When Kieron managed to get the latch open, the door flung wide, pulling both him and Jules out it.

The fuel room — the tanks… the cadet responsible for monitoring the tanks… everything in the rear bottommost level… gone. He could see the twin screws of the aether engines spinning, and the yawn of the sky opening wide to greet them as they tumbled. Below them, it raged on fire, with ion cannon shots piercing the veil of mist and setting the aether trail ablaze.

On his way past, Kieron grabbed for the door latch, and somehow managed it, cutting open his fingertips and tearing his nails. It was slippery, but a measure of sheer desperation allowed him to hold on even as Jules fell past him and grabbed hold of his ankles.

He could feel his blood in his ears, and couldn’t catch his breath; the chill frosted his eyelashes as they swung there, pulled back toward the screws.

“Climb me!” he shouted to Jules.

“What?”

“Climb me!” Kieron screamed. “Before one of us has… a motherfucking vision, Jules, CLIMB ME!”

She wasted no more time, grabbing fistfuls of his uniform, crawling up him until they were face to face and she was reaching for the inner wheel of the door. “Don’t let go, Brody,” she shouted at him, hoping he could hear her over the roar of the sky. “We’ll get out of this. Just hold on!”

“You got… maybe… thirty… seconds,” he wheezed.

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Hey Now

We dream it’s over all the time,
when the world comes in
and builds a wall between us —

they win, they win,
they always win,

don’t you understand?

They won; they won —
they keep on winning.

They are the beat of the drum
and when I walk along,
I never imagined how
I could count the steps wrong,

and walk right on by your door.

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I Have Given

Burning feeling,
low in my belly.
I’m fat,
but it’s empty.
I didn’t finish breakfast
this morning,
because I’m a
selfish
horrible
bitch.
I got to have
a little bit,
infested fruit,
crawling with filth,
and a bite of something
bloody and sour,
but then I had to
throw the rest away
to appease the angry gods
that rule my house.
I try to fill myself with water,
but I am full of holes,
and sponges can’t
hold as much
as pitchers can.
I cut
and I cut and
I cut and I cut
where you can’t see,
and I hope they tell me
it’s fatal.
I don’t believe I will survive this.
I have given up hope
that I will ever be beloved.
I have given up hope
that I will ever stop being hungry.

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black dog

Clawing and wishing
I could hold on wishing
there were some other way
to make sense
of the things around me
that didn’t involve
putting them in my mouth.
Feeling like a
less-than-toddler
at being able to cope,
feeling like a
wide-eyed jackrabbit
two lightfootsteps
from being backbroke
in the jaws of a black dog.
Everything’s just
so fucking heavy right now,
on my chest,
on my eyes,
on my lips.
I can hear you just fine, though,
but you’re not going to like it
if all I can do is howl along with it,
even if it’s in key.

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DeathWatch No. 89 – I Must Ask You Something

This is Issue #89 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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Plaga stared, his mouth opening and shutting as he attempted to find words to converse.

Lucida’s lips wore an amused smile, but she did not press.

Plaga could not tell if he was infuriated or relieved when Jet answered for them both, saving him from his stuck tongue.

“We have merely been discussing his brother’s actions, and whether he would pay for them,” Jet said easily enough.

Plaga bowed low, himself, trying not to stare, and his officers did the same. Finding his words, he let them come in a rush. “Forgive me my silence. I… am not used to this much beauty. Men of war seldom see such priceless treasures,” he said, lifting his eyes to look at Lucida.

She smiled, offering out a hand. Lifting her chin, Lucida looked well-pleased with herself. “Flattery, hm? Once you begin, you do it well, I must say,” she purred.

“Great Lady, you are, without a doubt, the most glorious creature I’ve ever laid eyes upon,” he murmured, lifting his palm up, trembling, to meet her fingers, and gently catch them in his hand.

“Plaga,” Jet said, trying hard not to roll his eyes and smirk. Too much. “Meet the Princess of Ilona, her royal majesty, Daughter of the Thousand Suns, sister to Immanis, Lucida of House Venator.” He bowed low, smiling behind his mask. “Majesty, may I formally present to you Acer Plaga, brother of Mactabilis, Lord Regent of Tenebrae, ruling in the right hand of his father, Vulnus.”

“A pleasure my Lord of Tenebrae. Welcome to my home,” Lucida said softly, and watched as Acer lifted her fingers to his mouth, and kissed the air beneath the tips of them so very reverently.

While Acer looked awed that Lucy left her fingers in his palm, she glanced at Jet, scrutinizing him. She withdrew her touch from Plaga, who looked almost mournful, and she stepped closer to Jet, and slid her hand against his shroud, his chest.

Jet stood immobile, letting her do as she would, looking to Acer with impassive eyes, the rest of his expression hidden behind the mask.

Plaga looked easily jealous, his hands curling into fists as Lucida reached up and carefully took away Jet’s mask, revealing his painted face. Even as her hand reached up, fingers pressing to his lips, tracing his jaw, he remained still. He was still bloodied from his earlier death; he left it as it was to add to the dramatic presentation of himself as Ilona’s Guardian.

Plaga saw how she used Jet’s blood against his skin, tracing it against his lips almost reverently, until at last, she tipped his jaw and leaned up to press her mouth to his. She kissed him with a tenderness that startled Jet — his eyes fluttered shut, and one hand settled warmly against her hip. The kiss moved him; he had not thought any of her kisses could. The idea of it shook him. All the same, he pulled back, lifting his head, and murmured, “Majesty.”

She turned to face Plaga, then, and read the hunger on his face so easily, she nearly laughed as she watched his expressions war amongst one another — desire, revulsion, shock.

Desire won. His eyes gleamed with it.

She stepped closer to him, and he all but put out his arms to receive her.

“Acer Plaga,” Lucida crooned. “I must ask you something.”

He stared at her bloody mouth and nearly panted to answer, “Anything. Princess, I am… at your service. I –”

“Did you put a blade through my guardian?” she wondered, dark eyes staring him down.

The shock on his face was immediate. He stiffened, trying not to pull back. Swallowing roughly, he did as best he could with honesty. “I did.”

“Did my guardian put a blade through you?” she asked.

“No, Princess,” he said softly, nervousness showing in the way he tried to hold himself quite still.

“Then consider yourself forgiven for your brother’s transgressions,” Lucida said. “If you had not been, you would not be here, and one of your generals would have to take your body back to Tenebrae, to the land of your father, and there would no longer be sons of the House of Plaga, to carry on the line.”

“Your Majesty is most generous,” Acer said, looking relieved.

“She is,” Jet said quietly. “Lucida of House Venator is both powerful and generous.”

“Speaking of my generosity,” Lucida laughed, “I have come to make certain you were well-appointed in your guesting rooms. You and your guardsmen will have the full of the second floor of the moon wing. You may use it as you would your own home.”

“Majesty,” Acer said, looking down briefly. “I do not–”

“If there is one thing you will learn in your time here, Plaga, it will be to accept gifts with grace,” Lucida said, one brow lifted, her gazed pointed.

“Yes, Majesty,” he answered, grasping her unspoken meaning.

She smiled, and all was radiance again; Acer and his guards were escorted to their rooms, wherein servants brought them clean clothes and cold wines, and bid them to refresh themselves as they saw fit.

Lucida and Jet were left to ready themselves for that evening’s feast, but on the way back through the halls, Lucida chided Jet, “You forgot something, you know. In your introduction.”

“Did I?” Jet wondered, thinking back and frowning. He did not enjoy missing out on details. “What was it? Did Plaga notice? I named you fully, did I not?” He turned to look at her, but could not tell if her expression was amused and playful, or sad, but attempting great cheer.

“Do you not claim me, Guardian? Am I not to be yours?” she said. “I had been proud of the title the instant I heard it on the lips of one of the servants who had overheard it. And I would be prouder, still, to wear it before our guests,” she said. She slid herself against him, and leaned up to kiss his mouth again, tasting of cinnamon, and his own blood.

With the heat of his reforged heart still thundering through his veins, Jet could nearly hear nothing but his own pulse. Lucida being so close meant he could feel hers against his skin, and the way they throbbed in time drew him ever closer.

The scent of her was intoxicating; Jet wrapped himself around her and pulled her against the still-drying blood against his chest. The feel of her so close was somehow ever more intriguing. He forgot himself and twisted around to lean her against the wall, the door, anywhere. Her kiss set him ablaze, and he kissed back, twining himself up with her; when she reached behind herself to open the door, they all but tumbled through it, laughing, and still kissing —

–and bumped right into Secta.

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