I wonder each time I see her, ever since we lost one another, if she imagines a life we might have had outside of all of this, if we could have escaped the choke hold the Guild held on the city. If we could have made a way for ourselves, her with her charms, I with my knife.
I wonder if she imagines the laughing voice of our dead friend, if she can still picture his face the way I can. I wonder if she takes to the half-breed’s bed with pleasure now, or if her eyes are as dead for him as they appear to me when we have passed one another in the halls, on the streets. I wonder if she is anything the girl I remember, or a grown woman now, a stranger to me, if I am a stranger to her, after all these years, her with her charms, I with my knife.
I wonder if I could save her, if she would let me, if what she knows now is more comforting than an unknown future of freedom. I wonder these things while I cut purses and throats for coin, for gems, for a master we both serve with a willingness and hatred mixed, her with her charms, I with my knife.
I wonder if she remembers my ageless face, my surrendered name, the way I remember her bright eyes and whispered promises the night I bled for us, the night she bled for us, both of us to keep the other safe.
Her with her charms, I with my knife.