DeathWatch No. 130 – It Doesn’t Have A Name

This is Issue #130 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘DeathWatch’ then go to ‘#0 – A Beginning’ and read from there, or go find the issue # you remember, and catch up from there!

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“Welcome, again, Legatus,” the Prince crooned, welcoming Coryphaeus with open arms.

The Ilonan officer smiled faintly, and accepted the embrace.

“And what is this?” Immanis asked of Coryphaeus, looking past him toward Jules, who kept her eyes down, and her hands clasped behind her.

Dressed as a servant and not simply a slave, Jules stood so very still, and let her quiet lack of response answer the Prince. Her simple robes ended above the knees, to keep her legs and feet bare, so that she could hurry with ease, and her milkwhite skin was a source of fascination for many who saw her.

“This is the Westlander you so graciously allowed me,” Coryphaeus said. “It cleans up nicely, as they say.”

Jules found it remarkably easy to not roll her eyes; she trained herself to listen to only the Legatus and the Prince, and only for orders or questions from the latter.

Immanis stepped down from his dais and approached Jules, walking around her slowly. Jules could feel the heat of Immanis’s skin as the Prince reached out a hand, and put his fingertips to her chin, to turn her gaze up to him. “What do you call it?” Immanis wondered, watching her face, but not addressing her.

“It doesn’t have a name,” Coryphaeus said. “If I must address it, if it is too stupid to know it is being addressed without being called upon, I will call it ‘servus,’ your majesty.”

“Ah,” Immanis chuckled, rubbing his thumb over Jules’s lower lip. “What a freakish thing it is, all pale skinned even in the sun. Hair all wiry and bushy like desert weed,” he remarked, without any evidence of dislike in his voice — simply curiosity.

Jules didn’t blush, and was grateful for it. She looked to Immanis without fear; she had been given away to Coryphaeus — there was no interest in her besides potentially making Coryphaeus nervous or feel very much indebted.

Finally, Immanis tapped Jules’s cheek and said, “Look at me, servus.” The word on his tongue felt obscene in her ears, and Jules felt as though her eyelids were heavy as she lifted them to look upon the Prince of Ilona, the pale of her eyes settling onto the dark of his. Something in her wanted to look away, cried out in fear. Something in her couldn’t resist, didn’t want to.

“Yes, your majesty?” Jules whispered, staring up at Immanis. She could not blink but instead stared at the Prince until her eyes began to water.

Immanis asked, “Tell me the truth — are you frightened?”

“Yes,” Jules breathed. “Terrifi–” Her breath caught, and she felt the dizzying, wrenching, wrong feeling that signaled slipping. So far, she was still there. So far. But it was coming. “Terrified,” she breathed, and for one instant, she glanced away, trying to meet Coryphaeus’s eyes, pleading.

The Legatus’s brows lifted, and he cleared his throat, saying, “Your Majesty — I was hoping that this invitation would allow us to view at least a part of the hunt?”

“The entirety will be televisored,” Immanis said. “They’ve been preparing for it for some time now. I have a number of prey. The Guardian will be joining me. I expect it shall be glorious,” he murmured, turning away from Jules, releasing her from his attentions.

The tension bled from Jules, and she shivered, taking a step back, trying to catch her breath.

“Of course you are invited to watch the hunt from the comfort of my personal study. There will be refreshment and likely gambling based on which prey you think will last the longest. I may make it a friendly competition between myself and our Guardian,” he laughed. “Though I may have to ask him to go easy on me.”

“Your swordsmanship is legendary, Majesty,” Coryphaeus said. “The Guardian’s protection is, of course, without parallel, but your skill, my Prince, has been heralded since your coming of age.”

Jules felt her head spin; she shifted to step closer to Coryphaeus, and stumbled, swooning.

He caught her, with no small amount of grace, and it was only the Prince who noticed, with no small amount of amusement, the look of concern on the Legatus’s face. “Servus,” Coryphaeus hissed. “What has come over you?”

“Forgive me, dominus,” Jules said, her voice low, her pale eyes lifted to him, pleading. “I am so clumsy,” she whispered tightly, squeezing his hand hard enough his knuckles ground together.

“Your Majesty,” Coryphaeus sighed dramatically, tearing his eyes away from Jules. “If I may be excused, before it embarrasses itself further.”

“Absolutely,” Immanis said, looking desperately amused. He gestured an easy dismissal, wearing no concern, but instead a mischievous sort of expression. Oh, Legatus, how easily your pretty face betrays your heart. What a ridiculous fool you are to think I don’t know your feelings. “Though I believe it will be my pleasure if you will join us for the evening meal tonight?”

“Your majesty is most kind,” Coryphaeus said, bowing low. “I am honored.”

“Bring the thing. See that it is not clumsy, yes?” Immanis said. “Care for it well, Legatus. Freakish or not, it was an unexpected gift,” he said, clarifying his earlier discarding of the leftover crew as generosity, rather than a lack of interest, “I imagine if you do, it may cause your life to be most interesting, when you least expect it.”

Coryphaeus found himself standing a bit taller, nodding sharply, ready to do whatever was necessary to impress the Prince with his command over and care of the red-headed gift he’d been so generously given. “Yes, your Majesty,” he whispered, and he turned and immediately took Jules’s arm, and walked her out of the audience chamber. He held her up, but rather than let it seem too kindly, he made a show of dominance, purely to keep the servants from whispering.

Attendants took them to the suites in which he would be staying, and gestured to Jules as they asked, “Shall we rest and feed it for you, Legatus?”

He eyed Jules for a long moment, pretending to consider it, and then said, “It is not used to this life yet and may not know how to behave for you; I would prefer it not embarrass me. I will keep it, for now.”

“Of course, Legatus,” the servants said, bowing, and left him to his devices.

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Playing

She’s playing and she sways and rocks and coaxes music from the living, breathing animal that sings in her lap, her dark eyes lifting to focus on his face, a brilliant smile curving her lips.

It’s always been a key –

(a cigarette-scented woman in a thin shirt and what was once one of his ties, too-thin hands earnestly rewrapping ribs, shaking hands petting the broken body of a mangy cat, hands within the ritual of lighting a cigarette, hands opening a paper bag unwrapping a bottle of very old scotch)

– that opened up a place in her, in him, where there might’ve been the
smallest connect, but it was there.

She plays, occasionally singing to the crowd, la la las and yeah yeahs and actual lyrics and laughter, and she plays as though she’s tireless, because she’s got that key –

(little black rectangle and it just felt wrong and the way she danced for him and the smell of peaches and constellation eyes and the purple green spotted towel and singing roses and a castle inside a forest on the edge of a waterfall of souls all inside a drawing on a wall where a girl with invisible wings tries to remember what it was like to fly)

– that seems to open it up inside the passers by: that woman with the tangles of dark, curly hair, and a single, bright white sneaker, walking a little black mop of a scottydog, an older man with a shock of white hair and the spectacles and demeanor of an stern, fatherly doctor, a younger man, tall, with indigo tattoos and storm-purple eyes, and a look that goes right through you, and a scrap of a thing, too tall, too thin, ducking by, avoiding touch and hiding her face, the faded ribbon tangle of her hair fitting with her tattered clothes and the look of honest longing on her face as she steals one last glance at the guitar, broken hands dangling uselessly at her sides.

…and life’s worth loving, anyhow.

And she’s playing.

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After The News

She had run, sick with grief, all the way home. The announcement had come without regard to the news cycle; she wasn’t ready for something like this.

A hundred thousand thoughts and feelings ran through her. Anger like fire. Misery like a flood. She banged open the door and came in like a hurricane, grasping hands like fists, desperately wanting to hang on, or to hit something so hard it broke.

He wasn’t there.

He hadn’t been there.

He wouldn’t be there.

She uttered a short, awful scream that sounded somewhere between begging and raging, and shoved the couch so hard it put a hole in the plaster wall. Once she realized she’d done it, she burst into tears and crammed her fist in her mouth, wailing and trying to silence herself all at once.

She staggered off to the bed that was cold and hadn’t smelled of him in years, and laid out one of his suits amidst the rumpled sheets. Kicking off her boots, she crawled in.

She laid her head to where his chest would have been, and listened to her own ragged heartbeat, pretending it was his.

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DeathWatch No. 129 – Listen To Me

This is Issue #129 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find DeathWatch, then click on ‘#0 – A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need, or find the last # you remember, and go from there, to catch up.

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“You did not tell him you were keeping a Westlander as a seer,” Secta said, standing outside the Prince’s rooms, as Immanis left, with Jet sleeping in his bed once more.

“You appeared to be in agreement with that being my decision,” Immanis said, looking to Secta, narrowing his eyes.

Secta’s own eyes widened; he stared up at Immanis, wringing his hands briefly, and said, “He would ask why you spared one. Why you would not speak with Gemma. And You would only be able to answer that you worried of his death, or yours. You don’t wish him to worry for either thing. I am in complete agreement for this.” Secta felt his heart in his throat; he had already heard of Gemma’s prediction. He knew the Prince was not long for the world — that Jet would succeed him. If Jet were able to ask the seer questions — he might try to intervene. Nothing would be worse than the Guardian of Ilona challenging fate. “Will you visit him, then?”

“I am headed there. Keep my Jet here. I will not be long,” Immanis said, nodding to Secta.

At once, Secta lifted his jaw, smiling, and held still, waiting. Proud for the praise implied in being asked to do more for the Prince, eager and watchful.

Immanis walked briskly down the hall, in a hurry to get to his seer, and return to the arms of his lover.

* * *

Kieron felt sick to his stomach. At every entrance, he’d stiffened, looking to the door, wondering if He would come in again. The Prince. When He did not, Kieron settled, looking lost. The shackles had been removed. He cleaned himself up. Dressed in the Ilonan fashion — but he had not had a single vision. He didn’t watch anyone’s death. He hadn’t seen one in quite some time. They had been coming in rapid succession since Hoyt — but then, since Ilona… nothing. He had nothing to show for being spared. He could tell the Prince nothing.

Immanis entered the chambers, looking narrow-eyed with determination. “Tell me, little pet. Did you work out some kind of deal with the soldier? He said he would save you, and mentioned all you’d need to do was pretend you’d have visions?”

“No! No, your Majesty,” Kieron said, looking frantic. He raked his hair back from his face, wincing at his stitches, tears in his eyes. “No, please. I have had them. I’ve had them my whole life. They have… they ruined everything,” he explained. “I will have one. I will, your Majesty. And as soon as I do, I will call for you. I beg of you, please believe me.”

“You have another two weeks, at which point I will put you in the hunt,” Immanis said archly. “If you cannot satisfy me with a vision, you will satisfy me in your fear.”

Kieron nodded, gasping, looking frantic. “I will do my best, Majesty, I swear it.”

Immanis turned to go, nodding to Kieron, and Kieron was left alone in the room again, with only his thoughts.

“Please please please,” Kieron whispered, walking back and forth, pacing. “Oh please,” he begged whatever universal force might listen. “I need this. I am here. I am finally here, in Ilona, and I am in the home of the Prince, and if I can gain his favor in any way…”

If I can gain his favor in any way, perhaps I will learn of Jet’s fate.

Kieron got no sleep the night before, and got none this night, determined to push his body to whatever extreme might bring on further visions; he ate only enough to keep from being sick, and began to contemplate bleeding himself, or wounding himself in some way to shock his mind back into its usual practice of betraying him.

“Now it’s betraying me by not betraying me,” he said aloud, and then laughed madly, until he sobbed.

* * *

“You want me to wear what?” Jules hissed.

“Nothing,” Coryphaeus said quietly, watching her. She bristled like a cat that had been splashed with cold water. “Except a collar bearing my house sigil.”

“No,” Jules said, laughing sharply. “Absofuckinglutely not on your life,” she hissed. “I’ll do it as soon as you do it.”

“So we’re in agreement, then,” Coryphaeus said, rolling his eyes.

“You’re going to go to court naked?” Jules asked, looking smug.

“Absolutely not,” Coryphaeus whispered. “You are. You’re the slave. I am your master. I’ll decide what you wear, and you’ll wear it.”

Kak. Yebat,” Jules snarled, opening her mouth to follow up on the Kriegic scorn.

In his chambers, Coryphaeus whirled, reaching for her. Long, thin fingers curled over Jules’s shoulder, and Coryphaeus moved in quickly. He leaned in his lips near her ear. “When we are alone, bear in mind any misbehavior on your part can be overlooked, on mine. However, Commander, you are lax. You will behave too out of control when I take you in,” he hisses.

Jules’s eyes were wide as she tried to pull back from Coryphaeus’s hand. She trembled when he pulled her close, and she listened, shaking, and finally nodded. “Yes, Legatus,” she whispered. She resented the way he pressed his advantage while claiming to be a good man who was trying to save her.

“Listen to me,” Coryphaeus sighed, releasing her.

Jules had grown to hate that phrase. Inevitably, he explained himself in a fashion that ended up making him sound ultimately reasonable, and she found herself doing precisely that which she hadn’t wanted to do. She grimaced, nodding.

“The Prince assumed you would not yet be broken, by your ordeal. That I would have to break you, to make you a worthwhile servant,” Coryphaeus explained. “To remain in the Prince’s good graces, I must show him I’ve done as he advised, and been successful.”

“And you think that means naked? You’d be a terrible master,” Jules said. “Put a collar on me. No chains. Dress me cleanly, plainly, and I’ll walk behind you with my head down.”

Coryphaeus looked dismissive, pursing his lips and trying not to roll his eyes. “Commander,” he sighed. “That’s ridiculous. How would that show you’re broken in any way?”

“I’ll follow your feet,” Jules explained. “Say what you need to say, order me as you see fit in the moment, and I’ll do it. As for chains, nakedness… making me a bloody wreck… I’ll behave as though I needn’t be controlled in that fashion. As though I follow you because I am too owned not to,” she said, looking at Coryphaeus with pale, determined eyes. “I can make the Prince believe I belong to you,” she promised. “Do not put me on display in the fashion you’re suggesting; I’ll be too vulnerable to be of real use to you.”

Coryphaeus opened his mouth to refute her suggestion, but found he couldn’t really find a problem with it, so much as it simply wasn’t his idea, and so he’d been inclined to disregard it. Irritated at himself for being narrowminded, he closed his mouth again and nodded at her, clipped. “Fine then. We’ll find you a collar. But by all that’s sacred, Commander, you had better be able to actually follow orders when I give them, even if in the moment you disagree,” he said, looking not quite certain.

“If you think you can free the surviving soldiers, Legatus,” Jules said, “I can follow your orders unto death.”

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A Nice Life

In his blackdust heart,
a knightly shining fire was born to repeat itself,
born to repeat.
In his mothwing heart,
a brightly screaming song was born to repeat itself,
born to repeat.

We’re all the same, all the same,
from our flesh to our voice,
from our eyes to our hands.
We’re all the same, all the same,
from our blood to our choice,
from our life to our plans.

Everything we’ve ever done was in the name of love.
Everything we’ve ever won was in the name of love.

Who could’ve listened to his magic
and not been changed by what he did,
what he did?
Who could’ve danced with that thin white love
and not been changed by what they saw,
what they saw?

We’re all the same, all the same,
from our flesh to our voice,
from our eyes to our hands.
We’re all the same, all the same,
from our blood to our choice,
from our life to our plans.

Everything we’ve ever done was in the name of love.
Everything we’ve ever won was in the name of love.

And in the silence between his last breath
and the fourth day,
the whole world closed its eyes,
and promised not to look,
if only he’d come back
if only,
if only–

We’re all the same, all the same,
from our flesh to our voice,
from our eyes to our hands.
We’re all the same, all the same,
from our blood to our choice,
from our life to our plans.

Everything we’ve ever done was in the name of love.
Everything we’ve ever won was in the name of love.

if only
if only

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