DeathWatch No. 34 – A Welcome Sensation

This is Issue #34 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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Her copper skin and dark hair shone in the light of the candelabras and chandeliers. She looked impossible, dressed like Immanis, rather than a servant. She wore silk brocade. She wore jewels. She wore tattoos and body paint. The plain uniform of the servants had fitted her, and this fit her, too, but it gave Jet more than pause — had she said or done something he took to heart that was a trick? Had she been playing with him, as a cat does a mouse?

“Don’t be mad, caro,” she whispered across the table, as Immanis continued to talk with his guests. “I wasn’t lying. I never get to meet the ones my brother hunts. They choose death too quickly. You don’t have their fear.”

Jet’s eyebrows shot up. Don’t have their fear? He was nothing but afraid! “I–”

“You’re not mad at me, are you?” she said, almost pouting, but then a glint in her eye showed that, too, to be a ruse. “Because if you get sullen, you’ll become infinitely less interesting.” The smirk on her face was the same one curving Imannis’s lips; she had as much the heart of a predator as he did, and Jet knew he would be a fool to forget it.

Didn’t he have every reason to be sullen? Didn’t he have every right to be angry? To be confused?

He sat back, swallowing roughly, and considered his words as he schooled his expression, carefully curving his own lips into the faintest of smiles. He had no idea what he was doing, here. He was out of his league, out of his element, out of his everything. He didn’t know the language, and he didn’t know how to survive here, thousands of miles from home.

He could use a friend, couldn’t he? Even if that friend had sharp teeth.

“Not mad at all,” Jet said. “Just feeling a little stupid I didn’t know who you were.”

“How could you have? And this way I find out how you treat people who serve,” she said, shrugging. Wine bearers came around, and she lifted her glass, and motioned for Jet to do the same.

He watched the purple-red liquid flow into his glass and when he’d received it back, he watched her to see if she would raise hers in a toast, or simply drink. Everyone around the table was still talking, though now and then they stared at both him and Lucy, conversing quickly in Ilonan. When he caught himself straight-faced, he pushed the smile back to his lips, not wanting to appear sullen now, or ungrateful.

Lucida lifted her glass in a silent toast, nodding to him, and then drained it of its contents, watching him.

When she put it to her lips, he mimicked her movement, and as she drank, he resolved to put his glass down only when she did. When she set hers, empty, on the table, he did only a moment afterwards, breathless.

When she laughed, he did, as well, feeling lightheaded in a way that left his spine tingling and his legs restless, his hands hot and his head swimming.

There had been a saying, centuries ago, that the Allied Territories brought up and then destroyed, as they slowly took over more and more of the world, starting wars, attempting to subdue other cultures: “When in Rome, do as the Romans do.” The Allied Territories did not believe in partaking of culture and learning it; they burned it down and replaced it with what they’d decreed as civilized culture.

Jet knew would not survive a war where he was the only one on his side if he behaved in that fashion; and as such, he would have to forget, would have to become.

“When in Ilona,” he muttered to himself as he allowed his glass to be refilled.

Wine made it easier.

A rather large amount of wine on an empty stomach was a poor choice, on his part, but he weathered it, watching Lucida, watching Immanis, waiting for the food, and when that came, watching the customs of eating to make sure he did not do anything improper or downright offensive.

Luckily, eating in Ilona wasn’t anything too different than eating back at home, or even at the Academy, though the food here was rich, and the courses plentiful. He must have tasted a dozen different things, strange pulpy fruits with bitter rinds, dried fish flavored with ashes — he had asked Lucy to translate it repeatedly until he believed her — and something called a chutney he found he loved, regrettably so, once he knew it had been made with red ants and their larvae.

Hours passed in a dizzying rush of food and drink; he answered questions as Lucida and Immanis translated, asked questions of his own, and as the dinner party broke up, he stumbled away from the table with Lucida, talking with her about nothing in particular, laughing as he tripped over a rumpled carpet, laughing harder when she did the same thing a moment later.

She led him to the massive doors he’d been shown to before, but this time, she walked in with him; he didn’t quite realize where he was until the doors shut behind him, and then he paused, blinking, trying to clear his head. “This isn’t my room,” he said, chuckling.

She answered him in Ilonan, grinning at him, her dark eyes shining, and grabbed him by his jacket, pulling him in after her.

“Wait — no, this isn’t –” he began, laughing. “I don’t–”

She put a finger to his lips, and leaned in very, very close, her breath warm against his ear, panting briefly, paused. He parted his lips to talk, but she pressed her finger harder against his mouth, silencing him further. “Do you have a knife,” she whispered, pressing her cheek to his, her lips near the corner of his mouth.

“In my front pocket,” he breathed, his heart racing, his eyes wide in the dark of her barely moonlit room, “Wh–”

Her lips crushed against his, then, tasting of wine and coriander, of orange and turmeric. Startled as he was, he didn’t stop her, didn’t even try to; the kiss was sharp, and he tipped his head to the side and kissed her back without thinking. The last time he’d felt warmth like this was the night before Kieron left him, and it was a welcome sensation, human and hungry.

She smelled of jasmine and cinnamon as she took a step closer and pressed herself against him, opening her mouth to deepen the kiss and pull him close.

He gasped against her lips as her hand slipped into his pocket, and then he grew quite still as she shifted her hand against him, searching for–he hoped–the knife.

All the while, she kept kissing him, and he trembled as he moved to put his arms around her, kissing her in return, his head spinning, his heart racing, thundering against his chest.

She found it, closed her hand around it, and lifted it from his pocket with deliberate care, her tongue against his teeth.

With one hand she opened the knife, drawing back just enough that he could still feel her heart beat now matching his, racing, as she whispered against his mouth.

“We’re not alone.”

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Syllable A Second: BREAKS

Just outside of arm’s reach
so you can know you’re safe.
I don’t yet realize
what I will do for you.

What I will become.

You touch your lips
the way I touched mine
when I realized
what I’d done.

You can still taste smoke
against your mouth.

I can still taste
you.

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Word a second: minute of confusion

There is
a special sort of horror
in wondering how
you got where you are
and wondering as well
how you will get out of it,
especially when
you cannot see,
and all you can smell
is blood,
and all you can hear
are screams.
It is a delight
he loves to inflict.
It is a kiss
he loves to give.

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DeathWatch No. 33 – I am certain I have the custom correct.

This is Issue #33 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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Jet stared at himself in the mirror, inspecting the line of his jaw. The razor had been unfathomably sharp; he ran fingertips over the smooth skin of his cheek and chin, and finally shrugged, content with the outcome. The armoire had been stocked with clothing of various sizes; after a shave and two baths — one had not been enough to deal with his filth or the ache in his muscles — he ate the cold food off his tray, drank several cups of tea, then dressed himself carefully, in comfortable clothes he hoped were appropriate to whatever dinner he would be attending.

He kept getting up and looking at himself in the mirror, raking his hair back from his face, plucking at the collar of his shirt, staring at the boots. Everything fit well enough. He was clean and presentable.

He simply felt like a cheat, like he was betraying himself, and Kieron.

I should be fighting. I should have run.

He looked at the clock for the thousandth time, sighing that it was only a quarter of an hour until six bells, and decided that was time enough; he had no idea how to find the dining room, and he did not want to be late. Taking the folding knife from the nightstand, Jet tucked it into his pocket, and tried the door.

It was still unlocked.

He took a deep breath, and let himself out into the hall.

Though it was undoubtedly beautiful, the foreignness and emptiness of it set his skin to crawling — no one else was in the hall; he could have been the last person alive on the planet. Quickly, he strode off to the right, imagining he would find a person at some point who could direct him to the dining room. He wandered for some time, but saw no one in the first five minutes. After a little while longer, he grew worried; he did not want to be late purely because he’d gotten himself lost.

He hurried, glancing down crossing hallways and into empty rooms, and finally he strode around a corner and right into a servant who looked both startled and then terrified. He lifted his hands up palms out, and said, “I won’t hurt you. I’m just looking for the dining room!”

The servant’s eyes darted this way and that; she did not answer, but stared at Jet in fear.

“The dining room, that’s all, you know, where… where you eat?” he asked, miming the motion of eating, and rubbing his stomach.

That got the servant to take a step back, shaking her head.

“Please,” Jet said, frantic. “Can you find Lucy? Lucida?” he wondered. “Is Lucida here?”

The servant paused, still somewhat distrustful. She asked him a question in Ilonan, but all he could make out was the word “Lucida” and so he simply repeated himself. “Is Lucida here?”

The woman gestured nervously for him to follow her, and she turned and hurried down the hall, up a staircase, down another hall, until he was easily lost; she stopped in front of a large set of doors and knocked on them with the massive doorpulls. Another servant opened the door to receive him, and looked slightly startled. “You are Jet,” she said, her accent thick, but understandable.

“I am! Do you speak my language? I’m not yet schooled in Ilonan,” he said, looking hopeful, trying to glance past her — he wondered if those grand doors were to another wing of the palace where Lucy was working.

“Know enough rough tongue, yes,” the woman said.

“Excellent, yes, I am looking for Lucy so she can help me find the dining room?” Jet said, trying not to laugh at himself.

“Is busy. I take you to dining room,” the woman said bluntly.

“Oh. That’s… well thank you,” he said, quite pleased for her assistance, no matter how brusque. He followed along in her wake, and after a time, found himself in a long chamber with a rather huge table in the midst of it. It was filled with all manner of food and drink, tall candelabras, exotic floral arrangements — and people.

And Immanis.

Venator stood at one end, while all the guests sat, talking and gesturing, waving drinks about. When he noticed Jet, his lips twisted into a rather amused smirk — something about it was familiar, and it made Jet flinch — and he said something to his guests, gesturing toward Jet.

Almost as one, the party turned to look at Jet, and the talking stopped. People set down their drinks and rose from the table to approach him. That, too, made Jet’s heart race; he struggled not to run from the people as they approached him, wide-eyed and curious. They began to talk to one another in whispers, but Jet could only understand a word here and there, mostly ‘savage’ and ‘animal’ and so he simply looked to Immanis, standing still, waiting.

Immanis himself strode to Jet’s side, carving away people right and left, letting them step back and watch. The tall, copperskinned man offered him a hand. “I see you have decided to join us,” he murmured quietly. “And you are quite on time.”

Jet stared at the hand for longer than a moment, without reaching out his own.

“I am certain I have the custom correct,” Immanis said softly. “A grasping of hands for mutual assurances of safety?”

“Yes, I…” Jet flushed, offering out his hand; when Venator took it, the young man schooled his trembling, but only barely. “I hope not to offend; the situation is… not what I am used to.” He stared, for a moment, at the way his pale skin laid against the darker tones of his captor.

“I should imagine not,” Immanis murmured. “And yet it is what you shall be used to, now. You will join me for dinner,” he intoned. “Come, sit by my side — across from my sister.”

Jet shivered, nodding, and followed Immanis back to the table, letting himself be seated. When he looked up, he flinched again, staring dumbly across the table at the dark-haired beauty.

Her smirk was precisely like her brother’s, and she had a way of looking through her lashes that made Jet’s breath catch.

“Lucy?!”

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DeathWatch No. 32 – How long do you suppose you could live in a cage?

This is Issue #32 of DeathWatch, an ongoing Serial. Click that link to go find ‘A Beginning’ and read from there, if you need to catch up.

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Come to dinner? With the thing that told him he’d be hunted? Served by the woman who spoke of him as though he were nothing more than cattle? Jet’s mind spun; he paced the room for over an hour with no more thoughts for breakfast, looking for other ways out, other weapons. Two hours later, the sinking feeling in his stomach confirmed what he’d begun to suspect, as he examined the various things he’d found and laid out: a straight razor with stone and strop, two pairs of scissors and a seam ripper within a mending kit, another pair for grooming mustaches and such, and a pocket knife in the bedside table.

A chill crawled over his spine as he ran for the door, an awful suspicion curling cold fingers around his insides, clenching slowly into a fist.

He put his hand on the knob and turned — when it opened, he uttered a low cry of distress.

It was no longer locked.

If they weren’t stopping him, there was something else here in this place that would keep him, or destroy him if he tried to leave. Something they considered worse than simply staying here.

He opened the door, holding a straight razor, determined to see how far he could get, and promptly bumped into the woman who’d brought him the breakfast tray. She was rolling a cart with a tea service on it, and was rather startled to see him, if her wide eyes and fish-gawping mouth were any indication. She exclaimed loudly in Ilonan, but then switched to their common tongue, and said, “Did you need something?”

He lifted the razor, gritting his teeth, and opened his mouth to speak.

The razor was gone from his hand.

It was in hers. Jet felt a chill, his heart thundering. He’d only seen the barest flicker of movement — she’d been so fast.

She folded it carefully, pocketed it while smiling, and said, “If you needed assistance in a shave, caro, you could have rung the bell. Guests of honor don’t wander.”

Now it was his turn to gawp. He stared at his hand, flexing his fingers, and backed up a step.

“Come now,” the woman said. “In the room with you. I’ll pour you a tea — have you eaten your breakfast? No, you haven’t. Gracious, are you sure you aren’t a savage?”

“Please,” Jet began. “I need to leave.”

“If you go now,” the young woman said, “the hunt begins. Are you ready? You don’t seem ready.”

“What?” Jet gasped. “What do you mean?”

“Explaining everything to you is getting tiresome, caro,” she said, looking imperious and irritated all at once. “You can stay here as long as you like. You can leave, at any time. The instant you walk out of the doors of this palace, the play begins. He is hunter. You are hunted.”

“And… if I stay?” he said, watching her.

“You are treated as a guest,” she explained, shrugging. “Eat here, read in the library, enjoy the gardens.”

“…for how long?” Jet whispered, looking confused. The airship slavers had said they did this often. The trader behaved as though this happened monthly, if not more often. The situation was set up with such structure — he cannot have been the first to receive this offer.

“As long as you like.”

So where were the others who chose not to be hunted? he thought.

As if to prove this place were strange enough that the woman could read minds, she said, “No one stays.”

“Why not?”

“How long do you suppose you could live in a cage?” she wondered, smiling tightly. “Even a large cage. A pretty cage.”

Jet looked around, taking in the well-appointed room, the tea service, the smiling woman. He thought of the life he’d left behind, and the simple fact that he didn’t know if he’d ever see Kieron again, alive or dead. “I don’t know,” he murmured, “but I want to find out. I don’t want to die.” Besides, he thought, if I’m here as a guest, for now, I could use the time to figure out how to escape.

“Excellent,” the woman said. “I suggest you have your breakfast, hmm? Then perhaps a bath and a shave. You say you are not a savage, but you certainly look like one, still, caro.”

“Why are you calling me that?”

The serving girl smirked at him, looking through dark lashes. “You haven’t told me your name.”

Jet stared for a moment before he finally said, “It’s Jet. My name is Jet.” He took the time to watch her, then, to look her over, and fully take in the copper of her skin, the dark of her hair, the line of her nose and mouth. She had a bearing that was iron, not simply hard from doing manual labor, but strong.

“Jet,” she said, catching the word in her teeth. “Black stone,” she murmured, nodding, as Immanis had done. “I’m Lucida. You may call me Lucy.”

“Lucida,” he repeated, as she had done, and then said, “Bright.”

She looked thoughtful, and then nodded, saying, “Yes. That is close enough.” She watched him, then, for awhile, narrowing her eyes and said, “I will leave you, Jet, to eat, and do as you will. Dinner is called at six bells. Lateness is considered rude, here.” She removed the razor from her pocket and handed it back over, adding, “As is poor personal care.”

Jet felt his cheeks flame; he took the razor and nodded. “Goodbye, Lucy.” He listened for the latch, and once it shut, he put his hand on it, twisting it to see if she’d locked it behind her.

She hadn’t.

He strode to the bathroom with purpose, and stood before the mirror, staring at himself. After a short time, he closed his eyes and held tightly to the razor, sliding his thumb over the handle, flicking the blade out.

No one stays.

How long do you suppose you could live in a cage?

He lifted the razor, much like Eisen did, cocking his elbow down, tilting his hand out, feeling the keen blade touch his throat. He watched his own face, his own eyes, and said aloud, “I’m sorry, Key.”

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